Views : 66,499,622
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Jun 2, 2015 ^^
Rating : 4.942 (10,799/730,262 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2022-04-09T21:23:01.802339Z
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
As a 17 y/o who's been clinically diagnosed with depression from the age of 12 (runs deep in the fam) NF, I really appreciate you and your music, you've worked so hard to come this far and so have the people who your music has helped. To everyone struggling right now ... Know You Are Loved. 2024
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Everyone keeps saying "what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger". That strength only comes after unimaginable pain, leaving behind the broken pieces of your soul. Wounds heal, a soul fades and the broken people of this world push on, and no matter how painful, miserable and downright hellish life becomes. We still put on a smile and tell the world "i will be alright". Stay strong Everyone, you're all loved, missed, wanted and needed.
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When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me
Inside
I'm paralyzed
When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (Oh)
Where's the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me
Inside
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed, I'm scared to live, but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain, then I buried mine
A long time ago, but it's still alive
And it's taking over me, where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why
I'm in the race of life and time passed by
Look, I sit back and I watch it
Hands in my pockets
Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I just watch 'em
I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I'm in a box, but I'm the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me, inside
I'm paralyzed (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
Where are my feelings? (Yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
I know I should (oh, how come I'm not moving)
(Why are you not moving?)
I'm paralyzed (hey, yeah)
Where is the real me? (Where is the real me? Where is the real me?)
I'm lost and it kills me, inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)
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This song. This single song has brought out years of emotional bottling, silencing, and stagnation. I was diagnosed with autism at eight, and have been relentlessly bullied my entire life, and was routinely beaten by my father when ever I cried or had a melt down. As a result I learned to hide my emotions, and anything I viewed as showing "weakness". I quickly developed full on depression by the 5th grade. Adding onto the fact that I was self aware enough to know that, because I had autism, I would never be able to fit into society. That I would always be different from my peers on a neurological level.
In 6th grade I started having suicidal ideation, and my self esteem rapidly began to decline, throughout 7th and 8th grade my mental health only got worse. Between 8th and 9th grade I met my girl friend at summer camp, and she quickly became one of the very rare sources of light in my life, and she still remains that way. By 9th grade, only at 14, I had reached possibly the worst state of my mental health in my entire life. I viewed myself as a burden to my parents and my girlfriend. Almost every week I had thoughts of suicide and self harm, and had vivid imaginations of how to end my life, which I thankfully never went through with. Then I developed anxiety at 15, after my girl friend was sexually assaulted by someone she thought was a friend. I have had anxiety since. After that as I got older my mental health improved slightly. And by senior year, I had started a turn around. I now write this as a 21 year old, who has suffered unimaginable pain and self-inflicted mental torture. I still struggle, and often times have anxiety attacks about my girl friends loyalty due to what happened years ago, which I question heavily due to never knowing what truly happened.
To anyone who is struggling in some capacity, and who is hurting inside, there will be light, even if it isn't a bright one. But it will come. I'm living proof.
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you know what's more depressing? it is when you don't know what you feel anymore. you cant even identify whether you're feeling sad or broke. it is just felt so empty inside. you don't know what your purpose or do you even have a purpose in this life. I feel so lost right now. I don't know if I can find the happiness that I want
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@kielniakielini6347
3 months ago
Who 2024? 😢
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