@bluft

8 months ago

Its gotten bad again The nights have grown longer with sleep missing each night The feeling of a lost despair that cant be fixed The confusion on where to go, what to, what to say, what to even THINK The feeling of never truly being just enough always in the back, growing loud day after day, and night after night The chill of a deep despair from a decade's worth of pain, sorrow, and suffering Just when will it end The only small ledge to stand on being these few people that would be upset by taking that final step Angry perhaps, more then sad, angry for not noticing, helping, not being told Being left in the dark cause speaking of the pain hurts far more then the silent suffering hidden away deep into the evenings dark night A cry for help that can not be said, locked in a throat that wants to scream, cry, demand to just feel OKAY To just feel wanted, needed, accepted, anything When despair is so deep that just leaving ones bed is a daily struggle What does one do when they cant get the help they need, when they cant voice the level of lost they feel to the world Each day is a waking nightmare to continue, but for those few people the faint urge to push through for no one else but them The dream of someone else taking the final blow and freeing the broken spirit, without any lingering regrets, and sorrows, and with no one to blame One day it will all come to a end, just have to hold onto that small, fleeting hope that SOON, soon it will all be over, with no regrets to be held back by, that in a near future the weary soul of lost dreams will finally be put to rest, never to awake again into a world of never ending pain and misery. One can certainly dream at least.

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