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Genre: Education
Date of upload: May 14, 2023 ^^
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I think cutting off from humans helps in healing processes. People make others feel like you need them but in reality you can become someone who doesnt need anybody by surviving alone , and when you can survive alone you will be able to heal yourself too. Everything else that people do is just drama and for clout or for money or they feel the need to do it because they experienced it themselves, because they are in different states of mind, some may not even understand or cater your needs etc etc. But all you need to know is that you can heal yourself. Time can heal everything.
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Thatās what happened when I saw my exes dating profile. It was the picture of her when we were together on New Years Eve. I literally felt my lungs stop. Have been in a dissociative fog for months. Now that Iāve got some distance Iām feeling the grief. I keep seeing that damn picture in my head. Iāve got a good trauma therapist doing body work and reframing. It was the most painful experience of my life. I would have relived my child abuse a thousand times over if it meant I never had to see that picture. Absolutely crushed me.
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I have experienced this freeze as well and last weeks it has been loosing up a little. But yesterday I met my therapist and she lashed out at me two times. She misinterpreted some things I said and instantly got upset. And for me that is a big trigger. She also know how traumatising that is for me when she gets angry, but still she canāt seem to control her feelings.
Yesterday, to avoid conflict, I just had to be the big person in the situation. But it feels terrible that with my history, that I need to take care of my therapist feelings. She have told me that itās something in me that provoke these behaviours in her. That she only have experienced it with a few people before, so it must be me. Just by writing this here I can feel my body starts to relax and the freeze response starts to let go. š
I think she have destroyed my life. (But also helped me with some stuff). But I need therapy and healing so thatās why Iām continuing. And also I have been aware for a time now that she has these traits.
Also yesterday she told me in therapy what I should do āput your head like thatā, ādo thatā etc. For me that is traumatising as well. Because I donāt have any boundaries there.
It was the same experience the therapy session last week. Where she started to question my feelings. I have a destructive pattern where I get super arousal and canāt stop myself. And take on too much work etc. But she thought that was something good that I do so much work etc. Although she know Iām on sick leave beacuse I got burned out. She still said over and over again how that is something good and didnāt want to accept when I said how destructive that is for me.
Itās really confusing when your therpist makes everything worse and do things like this. Iām not sure what to do and have already made distance from the therpay with less appointments. But Iām afraid if I leave I wonāt find or get any new help.
I think I had to let this out from my chest because I can feel my whole body again relax and different sensations.
She helps me with my trauma in some way, but also she makes my trauma worse.
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@paulinskipukprogressive4903
11 months ago
Your videos are some of the best Iāve ever seen The one you did on grief, was entirely accurate and very helpful to me
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