@sarahschilanakratzer2561

1 year ago

Im 30 and ones when i was younger i was one of this girls who had a perfekt body i loved it so much because i really looked like all the models on the magazine's then i got ill with cancer i had to have 31 operations and the doctors in the most times just opened the old scars from the first few operations 2 years long i had to have a stoma and a plasticbag always aplyed on my stommach day and night and i hated me i hated my body and after the stoma i couldnt get out to swimm in a pool or a lake or go out in the sun with a shirt that was short so you could see my stomach and the big scars i have a few years ago now i had my last operation an the doctor who did it was so sweet he purposely opened all the old scars not that he needed to open all of them to do the operation but because i told him before i was insecure and i dont want to have my scars get bigger not just in length but at the beginning they where a thin ine and 4 years later they where like one or ine and a half inch wide and i dont wanted to get them bigger i begged him to open my stomach at other sides so the scars dont get bigger. He declined and behind my bag organized that a doctor who did plastic surgerys in the hospital have a look at my scars bevor my last surgery and he asked him if he can do something for me when its time to stitch me up the doctor did make my scars so much thinner and gave me more confidentso i dont hate my body anymore and i learned to accept my scars at part of my and my body as something like my diary and my scars are part of my story now along with a big tatoo on my back and more tatoos coming i realised i dont have to be one of these girls wgo are perfekt because im unique with my scars and unique is just another word for beautyfull like you are. And now i wear them with pride and im feeling a littlebit pitty for al the girls who think they have to be sertain way or type shape or form to be pretty or well liked or heard or worth somesing because i know im not the viktoria secret model type i was in my teens and early 20. But at least im myself and not a hungry and bitter person who can not have fun for her figures sake im better of not fitting in the category perfect!!!

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