@katiefalco7269

2 years ago

Lyrics: I don't wanna feel better No one's ever gonna love me like that again I don't wanna get over you I wanna sit with you in bed I don't wanna feel better I'd give anything to miss you again I don't wanna get over it I wanna get under it instead A book sits on top of clean and messy blankets On a bed that fucking creaks at night when I get in it late And late at night I'm chugging gatorade And someone's breaking up And I crack up because I know I'll never know just what to say I'm a communist a terrorist a MPDG thot Or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room Living out the shitty christian plot of Twilight or the Bible or the Lover by Duras Or I'm just really fucking selfish and really fucking lost But someone loved me Someone fucking loved me Someone fucking loved me and I fucking loved them too God dammit I was worth something I fucking learned something I had my cake I ate it It ate me too And god no I don't wanna feel better I don't wanna feel better I'd give anything to miss you again I don't wanna get over it I wanna rip it to shreds We kept our liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed And we drank it to go out or to stay in or to feel sad But in a hot way in A way I'll fucking never have again The sun has begun to set I'm a socialist Marxist libertarian slut I am an awkward teenaged virgin And I sorta kinda laugh a lot in bed But other times I cry or don't make noise at all I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small Someone loved me Someone fucking loved me Someone fucking loved me I loved them too God dammit I was worth something I fucking earned something I had a right to die a right to live and a right to choose too And god no Of course I don't wanna feel better Can you fucking imagine No one's ever gonna love me like that again I don't wanna get over it I wanna rip the stars to shreds I don't wanna feel better I mean of course it hurt Of course it fucking hurt It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes And I was super scared And we were all a train wreck but also somehow making it I think I might've died there twice And I would do it all again I'm a nihilist a soldier an OCD machine Or I'm a healthy baby girl who traded Sunshine for disease But when my head hit my cheap pillow I could tell I had a heart And I wanna tear this fascist milky way apart Because someone loved me Someone fucking loved me On my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew God dammit I was worth something I fucking learned something And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food I guess I loved you I guess I really loved you On my filthy life I love someone I barely knew And now you're over there And I'm way over here What am I gonna do

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