Views : 99,434
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Apr 21, 2022 ^^
Rating : 4.952 (55/4,502 LTDR)
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
Speaking from experience with BPD and as a psychology minor who loves Abnormal Psychology, BPD might be the singlehandedly worst mental disorder to live with (in terms of disorders you can still live a decent life with).
There's no medication, no cure, the harder you try, the more damage you seem to do, you hurt your friends and family and are 100% aware of it, but you can't stop it. It makes you feel so powerless, like nothing but a monster, not even a human.
It literally ruins or at least tampers with pretty much everything.
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awake, contemplating death. sober for two and a half years, losing the family i though i was building. cant stop the intense feelings. this. is. unbearable. BPD has taken every sense of peace iI've ever conjured for myself. fifteen years I've been battling. EVERY single love I've had. gone... and now.. another.. i stopped loving awhile ago. i've detached. i dont want to be this.. im not the monster they believe me to be, but i cant stop believing myself a monster. this fucking duality is fucking horrible...i feel sick. music helps...
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I am afraid.. I am going to get myself screened for BPD because I researched it thoroughly and it feels like my eyes were opened. I fit the bill like a glass slipper to Cinderella's foot. It seems like all my suffering might finally be relieved, I know this has to be it. Everything that's been happening for years has been like this and I just want help because all my relationships have been so chaotic and I've always felt like I was going to get abandoned even over someone having a bad day from something totally unrelated to me.
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kinda wanna die rn . 🤷 i dont get why i cant just be viewed as normal, why i cant open up to others, my constant mood swings, dumb ass panic attacks etc etc im so young and yet everything is so hard to handle idk if i can do this anymore . everything is so hard, no one cares about me it all hurts i dont know what to do anymore i just want someone to give a shit about me more than anyone else god why cant i be viewed as normal and cool by everyone i either say too much or i dont say enough
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@nightwolf1805
1 year ago
I hate it. I’ve spend so much of my life wishing I was “normal”. I try so hard just for everything to fall apart. Nothing and no one stays, ever. Everyone leaves.
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