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This is it after 35 years constant suffering, neglect, abuse, treated worthless, meaningless, like i dont exist already aftr everything ive done 4 others this is all i get 4 it. police/crisis team n u r aware how chronic my mental health condition is n hlw very active i am with s/harm n aware of a few but not all suicide attempts 24/7 suicidal but ud rather leave me neglected 2 rot alone, suffer in silence. do u even remenr wh i am? My name? This is the worse way evr 2 treat this. u no i av no family, friends, support network, no1 notice or report me missing or welfare. means no referals being done n services getting false assumptions that i must be fine bcoz they hear nothing which is far from true. There so many new filth about now who no nothing about me but im sure they quickly found out who the fake freeloading service rincer druggies r though aye as they get checked on in homless day center and around spup kitchen u all suck up 2 druggies coz u druggies too. Only look out 4 ur own as u no ur get something in return oh n u get paid more 2 deal with them i found out. Im deteriorating fast effected my physical health too. My memory deteriorating. I already been told i wont be discovered wen i go because no1 checks in or monitors. Thats how little im worth huh. I begged 2 b told y? wot av i supposed 2 av ever done so bad 2 deserve this wot av i supposed 2 av ever done so bad 2 deserve this? But they jusy say nothing n its wrong, cruel how i been treated but yet still carry it on. I Stopped eating 2 days ago like i do wen about 2 do a massive attempt, sliced up n o/d more in preperstion 4 the big plan 2 b put in2 action as final resort if all other attempts fail. I asked crisis team 4 an answer 2 y i deserve this. Even told them im ending it 4 good but even though its their job to call 4 check in active risk they just said we only temorary service so u been discharged again we no u r under no1 else n alone, chronic, high risk n police/mental healtb always running 2 druggie who r less risk n under othrr services etc n im surrounded by those triggers but they wont say or do anything 4 me. This neglect is Completely against their duty of care, safeguarding, conduct. Wen i die/go missing/get assulted/ ill no1 will know or even care, i hope all ull live with the guilt n suffer 4 failuring all the guenin at risk non druggie sufferers causing their ends. Its a big problem in thos shit pitt town but they get found n treated with dignaty n respect as they av family n support networks who report missing or welfare n most is at railway so theu get spotted there. I said i wont evn just b another number 2 add 2 ur statistics aye as no1 will no, notice or find me 2 add 2 sastistic so ill say now i hope u live wiv the guilt of yet another failure, r u proud of this? u wont hesr from me again. Im gone. I hope karma hits u back hard.
*SO AFTER i spend the day takinv a massive o/d cutting deep.and drinking ive causes hearinf problems and thrown my guts up bad and feeling weaker. Police were calles for welfare after i went mad at a few people however THEY FAILED TO TURN UP so they AGAIN in breach of their duty. I have until midnight saturday night/sunday morning to succeed. Im going to be carrying on with the o/d and cutting etc today and in final act if im still concious ill do the final part off my plan to end existance for good. No turnimg back. And off course no one will know as no one cares*
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Half way through THE KRAKEN and feeling FUCKED. fucked over fucked in the head. Fucking drunk. Don't give a fuck. Who cares.
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Roll on success
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Nothing to exist for, never ending suffering and neglect, waiting for death