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in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Hi everyone, I hope y'all have been having a wonderful summer. Scott and I are excited about the next chapters and I am beyond glad I have taken this time to grow and strengthen who I am and what I see on the inside not just outside. I truly look forward to sharing the insights and self reflection that I have found! To finish this Iāll be away a few more months but will see yall soon! Love you all <3
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Hi everyone!! Just wanted to pop in and give a quick update. I am doing better, thank you for all the kind thoughts (even though I still haven't read many as I am still taking a bit of time away from all social media)! Its been a bit of a roller coaster over here from getting a nasty head cold turn pneumonia recently and I am now walking that uphill battle of recovering. Overall though things are going well, I have been focusing on understanding what I thought were flaws like wearing my heart on my sleeve, and finally understand its what makes me, who I am. With that said, the plan is to come back full force end of August/early September to YT! There are still a few things I need to workout inside to ensure this doesn't happen again and it just takes time dealing with old scars that I never addressed in the past. I hope everyone of you is having a WONDERFUL summer and remember each of us has value beyond what we think and know, we NEVER know how our very existence will impact the world making it a more loving and wonderful place for those around us <3
p.s. Scott says to say "HI" and talk with y'all soon!!
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I write this with a heavy heart. I have been silently breaking inside for a while.
Yesterday was the final crack in the vase that is Amanda, I wanted to end my life, the suffering has gotten too much for me to bear.
I want to thank those of you who have had such kind words and have found value in my sharing, I hope you can forgive me as I am not as strong as you had hoped. I can no longer tolerate the death by 10,000 papercuts. Something as innocuous as āno video this weekā gets turned into āyou arenāt carnivore, you arenāt doing things right, your channel has run its courseā¦ā¦.ā, some of you might even be disappointed that I canāt just ignore the negativity. On its face, a single comment has no impact, yet the summation of them all has crushed my spirit, being constantly accused of not doing things 'correctly' , lying or unmet expectations. I have never pretended to be unflawed or perfect on my journey.
People seeing someone struggling and instead of offering a helping hand or kind word they choose to kick them, to revel in the added suffering and malice that exists. I can admit I still harbor nativity inside myself, that deep down people do not want to hurt others yet on a day-to-day basis I am proven wrong. Iāve yet to rectify that part of myself to the reality that is this world, I know evil exists, we can see it in history in current events, the fact that slavery still exists in this world as well as labor camps and beyond. Yet I want to believe that when we aim to help others (even ourselves in the progress) that evil cannot co-exist, yet it does. Many will hide behind the sentiment of āI was just telling the truthā, yet we both know it comes from a place of malice. We all have it in us, the ability to harm, be unkind and be full of hate. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I have tried to change this about myself, be āstronger, ignore the hate, be Teflonā, but I am not. I cannot pretend to be something I am not anymore, push down the pain, sadness and suffering for the sake of āpretendingā it should not bother me. It does and ignoring it has led to not wanting to exist in this world anymore. So, I am stepping away for a while, I do not know for how long, I just know I cannot be guilted or shamed by one more person assuming something about me or what is left will be so far broken there is nothing to be pieced back together.
I wish the world to each and everyone of you.
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Hi everyone, no video this week things are quite busy on our side and some difficult news from my MRI but I shall be back next week!
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Hi everyone, going to try to get at least the weekly update done for tomorrow, still experiencing on/off low grade fevers, swollen lymph nodes and green stuffs. Scott thinks its long c*vid since this seems to be a constant trend the past while of doing fine then out of the blue being run over by a bus sick, who knows. Any who, hope you are doing well
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No video today, this cold is still kicking my butt
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Hi everyone! I haven't had the chance to edit my weekly update video yet today Sooo it will be tomorrow before I can get it out!
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HI everyone!! I FINALLY have Aprils Meet-Up planned, I hope to see you there!!
www.carnivorousme.com/event-details-registration/aā¦
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Hi yall!! You may notice a bit of change to the format, Scott and I are trying to tweak what works well for us. Im most likely going to do a weekly aggregated vlog as well as few other help ones! please let me know if there is anything specific you'd like to see!!
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Hi!!! You may or may not know I am doing some training on Tiny Habits with BJ Fogg! I am starting my apprenticeship next week (ON Monday!) coaching for their 5 day Tiny Habits FREE course! I would appreciate your help SO much with this! You can request ME as a coach for the 5 day course, you can do this by either placing your email & first name below here OR emailing me at carnivorousme@gmail.com with the info!! You can join for this upcoming week or the week after!
The layout of the course is:
Monday-Friday via email, we help create 3 tiny habits, revise them and work with you on ensuring the implementation over the 5 days! There are great addition videos in the email made by BJ about learning more about Tiny habits!
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Carnivore/Ketovore Weight Loss and Health