What are your thoughts on BWS #31? Did you watch it allll the way towards the end? ๐
I have to say Iโve been gearing up for reposting all the missing episodes ever since September last year - wanted to post it on the anniversary of the last visible BWS episode. I wasnโt able to make it in time though so it was pushed back againโฆ Then nostalgia hit me once more in February. Thatโs when I sat down and wrote episode 31 completely from scratch, and for once I felt satisfiedโฆ only to learn the next morning that Saeron passed away. It hit me hard. I was only grateful that I managed to finish it with the thought that she's still with us.
Other than that, I was able to recover some of my old files and โ oh boy โ I had so many open projects, fics youโve never even heard of. All started, never finished. Some of them were almost complete, some just drafts or rough outlines.
Would you still like to see it someday โ if not here, then maybe on Wattpad?
I just want to put everything out there since some work and effort was already thrown into it. And some ideas I had back then were really cool, not gonna lie lol
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Hi everyone!!
Now that we have all of the missing episodes of BWS up and running I thought I'd finally come in and say a few words.
First of all, thank you so much for sticking with my stories for so long. It's literally been years, but throughout all this time, I kept on getting notifications from both YouTube and Wattpad. Reading about how you still rewatched/read my series and hoped for me to come back made me feel both happy and guilty about my sudden disappearance.
But we're here now! A few years later!
YouTube has changed throughout the years and some episodes had to have been deleted for the sake of keeping my channel public. All of the episodes are now back up, but heavily cut/edited. If you're interested in reading a full, refined story - keep up with my Wattpad! (It's @Jimin-sswi) I'll be posting there quite regularly until the story is finished.
And one more thing...
BWS #31
COMING
THIS
MONDAY
At least for me it'll be monday haha. I'm super nervous and anxious about it because I haven't written or edited anything in so long. I also lost a lof of media throughout the years so I had to write it from scratch. I'm not sure how good or bad my writing skills are compared to years ago... But I still hope you'll enjoy it.
Anyway, I'll come back here and talk to you more after the new episode is up.
Until then! ๐
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Hi everyone.
It's been a while, hasn't it? There's a few points I'd like to talk about as I'm here, so prepare for a longer post.
I actually wanted to post earlier, but YouTube's given me a strike and eventhough it said I can't post anything for 7 days, I ended up being blocked for over 3 weeks lol. As you may have seen, many of my videos are missing at the moment. YouTube has removed a lot of content by themselves and I privated the rest of the adult videos after getting a strike (I'm too scared to lose this channel).
I just came by to say that despite not posting anything, I always see your comments and appreciate your concerns. Truthfully, I wasn't doing well this past year. Especially at the end of last year, I was at my lowest, probably at a breaking point too. I ended up hurting myself and it kind of made me realize just how bad my mental health has gotten. Currently, I'm doing much better. I made a promise to take a better care of myself and be a little more forgiving towards myself as well. I'm simply working on getting past it.
That being said, I've recently been feeling enough strength and motivation to actually sit down and start sifting through BWS. Since a lot of the episodes ended up being deleted, I'm planning to repost the whole story onto a different platform - either Wattpad or Tumblr. I'm rewriting some parts here and there - especially the first few episodes, which honestly were horrible to read lol. I'm about halfway through right now.
This past year I haven't written much. And if I did, they were rather depressing pieces haha. It felt weird not to write, because I've always used it as a gateway from the real world. But for some reason, I just couldn't. I'm hoping that working around BWS will get me through it - keep your fingers crossed.
Most importantly, the future of this channel is pretty much unknown. YouTube's been a real pain with all their guidelines and thinking about how many hours I put into creating videos only for them to be deleted makes me sick lol I'm thinking about moving someplace else and posting everytyhing in a written form rather than a video format.
And lastly, a news on a more positive note haha. BTS and their music have been a big emotional support to me personally ever since their debut, but since they've been a bit less active and their recent releases didn't really speak to me, I got into another group. Aaaand you probably guessed it right - Stray Kids's been keeping me alive nowadays lol. I've been catching up on their content these past months. So I'm thinking, if I actually end up getting back into writing, I could write for both groups. Would you like that?
I guess this will be the end of this long chaotic explanation (lowkey rant) type post lol. There's a lot more to say, but I don't really want to bombard you with everything I've been trying to get through.
Thank you for staying here despite me being MIA for a long time.
I hope to come back with an update sooner than later :)
Take care of yourself and please - don't hesitate to reach out for help if you feel like you can't do it by yourself anymore. It doesn't make you weak, it makes you brave instead.
Bye bye~ :)
PS. I now realized 2022 marks a 10 year anniversary of me discovering kpop... Why am I so old lol
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Everyone, please, stay safe.
Today I lost another person close to my heart due to the virus. I haven't even finished grieving after the first time, a few months ago. I need some more time.
I only came here to wish you and your close ones health. Please, make sure that everyone around you is taking care of themselves. Stay well and healthy. Let's see each other soon in good health.
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Happy New Year!โจ
2020 was one hell of a crazy year so there's nothing else for me to wish you other than 2021 being better. I hope you all have enough energy to face whatever 2021 prepared for you (hopefully it'll be a little more forgiving). Take a good care of yourself! โค๏ธ And remember to keep being mindful of health & safety of you and your close ones โค๏ธ
Do you have any new year's resolutions? ๐
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Soo Wasted Roommate was removed by YouTube ๐
I guess that's what's going to happen to multiple of my videos from now on because of the stricter policy YouTube's been using for a couple weeks now. There's no point reposting since my channel can get a strike if I do. I'll revise the text version of Wasted Roommate and let you know whenever I post it on Wattpad or Tumblr so you can still read it. It's just so disappointing, because I remember how hard I worked on the visual/sound aspect of it and now it's just gone ๐ Very discouraging
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Happy Holidays! ๐
Whether you celebrate this time of the year or not, I hope you'll be able to rest well and spend time with your closest ones despite everything going on. Please, stay safe and be mindful of everyone around you. I wish you take this time as a way to recuperate so you're well prepared for any challenges 2021 is about to bring ๐๐
And if you do celebrate Christmas - Merry Christmas! May you and your family have a blessed holiday! ๐๐
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Happy 2nd anniversary of Jimin-sswi! โค๏ธ
Before I say anything else, I'd like to apologise, because I bet all of you expected a video to drop today. Truth be said, I'm not very open with my problems, because I don't think it's the right place to share it, but 2020 was a year of my health decreasing. Whenever I felt better, I'd work ahead knowing that it won't last for a long time and the past weeks seem to be the downfall again. Which is utterly frustrating, because I've got so much planned already, drafted or even fully written - all of which is simply waiting to be made into videos I have no energy for (I'll show you sneak peeks on Instagram because that's as much as I'm able to do right now). I can't say anything other than being sorry for disappointing you and promising I'll rest well to finish everything, both, you and me are looking forward to.
Now that we have the sad part out of the way - I'm so extremely thankful for the past two years on this platform! Although it might not come off as anything serious, this channel truly means so much to me. I talked to so many amazing people, whom I'm proud to call my viewers โค๏ธ I also feel like we supported each other both ways, because whenever I thought my writing is pointless, some of you would leave comments about it brightening your mood up, curing your boredom or even inspiring you to write as well.
Especially knowing that it helps you get through the days, it feels like such a comforting place.
BWS was supposed to be finished by now and this week was supposed to be filled with celebration. I'm really sad all of it has to be pushed back. I'll make sure to take a better care of myself and come back soon (I'm not taking a break, I'll post as soon as I finish anything).
Please look after yourselves and stay safe!
I'm sorry and I love you โค๏ธ
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A few days ago I got a digital tablet and attempted to make a fanart based off my Crystal Storm thumbnail ๐ The face looks so stupid (I'm sorry Jimin ๐คฃ), because I messed up every part of it, but I'm kinda proud of the neck and animal ears (yeah, I only noticed he has two pairs of ears while shading ๐คฆ)
Overall, I don't think it's too bad for a first time, but I definitely do respect digital (and all kinds of) artists even more now!
Do you guys like drawing? ๐โค๏ธ
Xo~
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