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I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm mentally exhausted by school, but I keep insisting to myself that i'd want to go there. My only cure for my unending boredom is my friends, channel, and games. But even the fun in those temporary "cures" are fading away. Life feels gray, I know these things are inevitable and can't be escaped, but.. I'm not sure how to deal with it, I have to put on a mask to always look happy and nonchalant about things, even in the toughest situations. But inside, it's all hell. Maybe I can help myself, and you can too! Only of you want to. There's a weird addiction I have with money, I want it and I know I have to earn it but, at the same time, I kinda don't want it? I know I'm saving money for a better device, that's been my goal ever since I started this channel. Although life is hard, bad things are impossible to avoid, even for the good, and not all things can be perfect. We still have each other. God may not be with us physically, but is constantly telling us spiritually and mentally telling us to love ourselves. I'm writing this in the middle of the night, 2:27 A.M. to be exact, but I'm still not feeling drowsy yet, somehow. I have class tomorrow, and I already know I'll be incomprehensibly tired once I get home, but there's still time to improve my day schedule, since it's absolutely terrible. Like why am I gonna sleep at 3:00 A.M. when I have classes at 8:00 in the morning?! In my mind, I bet you're thinking: "why are you writing this? ". I'm sharing my thoughts on last couple days that went by, since I stopped uploading, I've been really unmotivated to finish my art, hell, I can't even focus properly in my games. I wanna sleep right now, but at the same time, I can't. But maybe after writing this long as hell letter to myself and to others, I might fall asleep.. And wake up at 7:30 A.M.. Tomorrow, maybe after class, i might check this letter and fix my grammar, spelling, and punctuation mistakes because I am indeed, tired. I like having good grammar, it feels nice using proper punctuations, especially when random words in my vocabulary just pop up and somehow in some way just match the context of my writing. Since I'm just writing about random things now, I might just end this. But I won't! I think I'll go for 3 - 5 more sentences. And that's already 1, I'd really appreciate anyone who reads this entire "essay" word by word, because I can see that it's painfully long. Even though not that much would probably read even a sentence or 2. It's nice I get to share my thoughts with you guys, I think I might actually fall asleep after this! I promise, I will upload a video this afternoon/evening, like genuinely. But anyways, thank you so much. See y'all soon!
End Time: 2:44 A.M. (Wednesday, October 30, 2024)
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Made this super rare moment happen! I love it.
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Inspiring images to help you in life😌
(Upcoming Video)
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Why is my channel flopping>:(
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Super proud of this drawing I made..
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Srry guys, I deleted all my sus vids😘
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What do I do with this?
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I luv myself XD