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Sarah Dee
Posted 4 years ago

10 years ago today I lost my baby boy.
Happy heavenly birthday to my baby Lucas. Andrew and Ava sang and blew out their big brothers candles today. We used to let balloons go and they would go upto their big brother in the sky. But since I found out that its not the best thing to do for the environment we decided last year to start blowing out his candles. I still find it hard to share these moments with the rest of the family so for now its just the 4 of us and hopefully one day we can let others help blow out his candles to. This year both the kids fully understand that they have a big brother and its heartbreaking to hear they miss him and want to play with him. Even though its upsetting and difficult and think sometimes doing nothing would just be easier. I never want our family to forget him and I want him to see how much he's loved. This time 10 years ago I was having my 1st holiday with just my husband and myself. I went into early labour and had him via csection in a foreign country. It was the hardest and most scariest thing I have ever been through. Even though back then I was in shock and didn't really have any idea what was going off I realise now how serious it was for both myself and baby Lucas. I think how things could of gone differently if my husband lost us both and him being all alone. Even though I'm grateful that I made it through I hate to say it because I lost my baby boy.
Happy 10th birthday my baby Lucas, we all love you so much xx

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