Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Happy due date to my baby Polly ๐ชฝ
Itโs a mixed feelings kind of day. Equal parts grief and relief; guilt and gratitude; sorrow and peace.
I think back often on this memory here, the exact moment I learned I was pregnant. The pure joy and love and happiness I felt. It was a moment of absolute hope; it was perfect and completely untouched by the perinatal anxiety and panic that was soon to follow, or the guilt and grief and shock of it ending as my fourth consecutive loss a couple months later.
This is how I try to remember my time shared with Polly. The love, the hope, the joy. Fly high, little one ๐ผ
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Hi friends,
Iโm sorry for the absence. A lot has been going on over here. Iโll post an update hopefully next week explaining it all.
Thank you for the care and concern. Itโs meant a lot ๐ค
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Meds have been prescribed, picking them up tonight, wish me luck guys ๐
And thank you so outrageously much for the outpouring of love and support. This is a terrible topic to have to bring up, and even worse to have to feel it at a time when I should be swimming in joy and gratitude. But Iโm doing everything I can to get back on track. Life is full of surprises and I have faith that something good will come of this road Iโm on, in the end.
Thank you all for being my village. The value that each of you have brought to my life canโt even be measured. โค๏ธ
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16dpo (4+2) and my Easy@Home test line was just about as dark as the control line this morning ๐ฅน๐๐๐ป
My OPKs started at โ0.29โ at 9dpo (according to PreMom app) and are currently sitting at โ1.49โ today at 16dpo, in case thatโs interesting at all ๐
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I made it to 14dpo / 4+0 ๐ฅน Itโs been a mentally exhausting few days. One lesson that Iโve been taught in parenthood is that you just canโt rush things. Throw away your expectations and your timelines, sometimes milestones are a slow burn and you canโt force things to go any other way than exactly how they will go.
This is a lesson I still havenโt learned ๐
And I cause myself a lot of anxiety because of it. Iโm far from perfect. There are probably a hundred million things more productive to do than fret over daily tests, but I am what I am ๐คญ
So with that as a preface, my anxiety-laced line progression video will go up today once I finish making a thumbnail for it. Until then, here are some beautiful SMU (second morning urine) tests, because my FMU tests made me want to breathe heavily into a paper bag for a minute there ๐
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The following pics: 1) todayโs 13dpo lines; 2) One Step progression, 3) Graviditetskollen progression, 4) Easy@Home progression, 5) OPK progression.
This new batch of Easy@Home tests seems to produce fainter lines that are stubborn at getting darker, which kind of gives me a heart attack ๐
In the Easy@Home progression, the 11dpo test is from my old batch which seemed to give me nice dark test lines. All the other strips in that progression are from the new batch. Anywho, the other tests are looking good I think, so all in all Iโm continuing to feel hopeful! ๐๐ป๐๐ป๐ค๐ผ๐ค๐ผ
Iโll be posting my testing video for 10-14dpo tomorrow once Iโve captured 14dpoโs tests! ๐ค๐ผ๐๐ป
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11dpo tests + line progressions so far ๐ฅน๐๐ป๐ My OPK is positive now, which is kinda crazy. It went really quick. Even with Benny, my OPK wasnโt fully positive until 12dpo. Things are ramping up! ๐๐ป๐๐ป
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Putting together a compilation of 10 - 14dpo pregnancy test videos but that will take another few days to finish up. In the meantime I thought Iโd share this exciting line progression so far and to offer hope to everyone out there in the TWW - my 8dpo test was so negative, you probably couldnโt have gotten a more negative test even if you dipped it in water. Not even an evap, it was so negative! Then a faint line on 9dpo and then just 24h later on 10dpo, wham! Had you told me on 8dpo that in just two more days I would be sitting with a test like this, I would have called you nuts ๐ฏ Please donโt lose hope if your tests are super negative early on, beautiful things can happen in just 48 hoursโ time! ๐๐๐ป๐ฉต
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Sorry for over-sharing but I took a test this evening (9dpo still) at 8pm and was taken aback by how much darker the line is now than it even just was this morning! ๐คฏ๐ฅน๐๐๐ป
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I dunno, maybe itโs just my phone but dang do I lose all my video quality when I upload onto YouTube :/ maybe itโs time to get an actual camera and stop using my phone lol. Anywho, here are a couple pictures of todayโs 9dpo tests. Theyโre faint, but Iโm early, so I can only just hope and pray that they get a bit darker over the next couple days ๐๐ป๐๐ป
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