I'm sorry for such a long hiatus since my last stream (and the one before that).
So... basically my life has turned inside out. It wasn't bad enough that my oldest cat (Tucker, the orange tabby) died when I was already stressed about the situation around the world and needed him the most, but pretty much right after my previous stream, we discovered that my second oldest cat (Midnight, the black American Shorthair) had a tumor in his stomach. He had been freaking out right after my oldest cat died, and we thought it was just stress.
We took him to the vet to get some teeth pulled, and he was in good health then, but literally right after that he became anemic, and that's when we found out about the tumor.
So... I've been in a constant state of stress, anxiety and depression pretty much all year. These streams were helping, but when these things with my cats came up... it just became way too much for me to bear. Also, my younger sister had decided to move to Arizona (which meant she'd also be taking the youngest cat with her), and so now it's just me, my Dad and my cat. It's a pretty big change, and that added even more stress to my situation.
Midnight's on a steroid that's purpose is to reduce the swelling of the tumor to make him comfortable again. He recently went back to the vet for a checkup, and while he's still anemic, they said he's doing great and his weight's up, so I'm hoping he will last much longer than I initially thought, but I don't want to get my hopes up too much, since I did that with Tucker when his initial heart failure treatment seemed to be helping.
So, Midnight now spends all of his time in my room with me now, since there's really nobody else for him to be with. At least he still asks for lots of love, attention, and importantly, his Fancy Feast.
My mood has improved over the past few days, so I want to try to get back into streaming because it's fun, and I really need that sense of community that it gave me (I hope I haven't driven off my few regulars with this impromptu break I took). I'm sure I'll always be a small YouTuber, but it's still much, much better than nothing. I'm really thankful to everyone who has joined my streams and has watched my videos. It means a lot to me.
This picture was taken back in 2011:
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Okay, I just need to throw this out there: yesterday my friend Sigma and I were streaming A Link to the Past, but for some reason, my chat wasn't loaded at all. I noticed the "welcome to chat" notification wasn't even there, but I assumed it was a change on YouTube or something. I never saw any chat messages and I assumed I had lost my audience due to the short hiatus I took due to personal reasons (that I may get into more at a later date).
But anyway, my friend mentioned I was ignoring someone in the chat, and I thought they meant that that person wasn't chatting today because he for some reason thought that I was ignoring them the last time I streamed. I'm very sorry about that and I'll make sure the chat is actually working from now on.
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I somehow have hit 1,000 subs (which would be considered painfully long-awaited by most, but I'm surprised to have ever reached it with how seldom I upload anything since the past few years). I know these days I don't upload much, but I have wanted to do more for a while now. I want to upload more music-related videos, maybe do a few gaming videos like I used to, and I really want to do a bit of YTP stuff, since a few years ago I began a few and abandoned them.
Although, that reminds me that the Vegas I bought years ago does not like Windows 10 at all, and I had to modify a system file to even get it running, and it renders extremely slowly, so I need to check out some actual free editing software before I can make videos again.
Hopefully, I'll be able to start doing more. But anyway, I thank you all for getting me to this point, and now I can make these community posts? I never had an interest in doing them, but YouTube just told me that I unlocked that ability, so... I AM WITH THE BIG BOIS NOW!!!
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