Hi guys :]!!
It’s my birthday today and it reminded me to post an update
I plan to make a comeback this summer after school ends, no promises but it’s something I would count on!
Have a nervous Amethsyt because nobody likes having happy birthday sung to them
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I’m brewing up a little somethin somethin
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I love you Cyder <3
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Hey guys, I don’t even know if my channel has any traction anymore but this is for the people who really care.
[possible trigger warning I cover SA and mental health]
I’m not doing okay, but I’m trying to be. I have had A LOT happen in the past 2 years, but this recent last year (2023) was hell. Real hell. I’m just gonna be flat out, I was sexually assaulted by someone who was supposed to be my friend. We are both girls but that doesn’t make it right. She lied to me and she manipulated me when we first met and got into my head. She wanted me to cuddle her, hold her hand, spoon her, be physical and act sexual. She wanted to compare our body’s and she always discussed things she wanted her long distance “boyfriend” (they were so toxic) to do her. She’d even demonstrate with pillows and beg me to write out scenarios for her. Yes, smut.
She sent me her nudes multiple times (some without consent, I was afraid so I said it was okay a few times, I was a horrible people pleaser) so she could see if they were “good enough” for her boyfriend. And quite frankly I’ve never been more disgusted and uncomfortable. One day she pushed the limits too far, and laughed at the cuts on my arms and kissed me. Without consent. She laughed when I started to freak out after she did this.
Her brother, who is my boyfriend (right now anyway, I’ll get into that in a second) I told him everything, and he took my side because he knows how she can be. And this pissed her off to say the least. We had started talking before anything really picked up and she was supposedly “supportive” until she wasn’t. She got mad and blamed us for everything and tried to guilt trip us with “I helped you get together!” No, she did not, in any way. Pathological liar.
She tried to sabotage us and tell him things that I was annoying and asked why he’d ever be attracted to me. Which he told me all this and didn’t engage with it and always shut her down. She has an upper hand in their house hold and started to dig deeper and tell her parents I was the one “causing problems” which affected the way they think of me even now because they believe everything she says.
She laid her relationship on me and expected me to fix it despite not knowing anything. She’d get mad when I told her the truth of the toxicity they had (she threatened her life over him leaving her)
I was the monkey in the middle and I was done. I
I told my boyfriend everything and she was finally done toying with me, mentally and physically. And she got mad and told me “our relationship should be private we need things between us too.” What? The fact that you assaulted me and touched me multiple times without consent and laughed at me for being afraid. And her having a pretty big age gap with that too? I don’t think so.
She finally cut me off. But this isn’t the end because we still have alot, he is still his sister (half sister, im salty I have to add that)
She is sexual with my boyfriend and does things that are just revolting I’d rather not say, they’re just that horrible. But they have to live together so this isn’t really the end, the end for me but not for him.
Still tormented to this day by her actions, I am not comfortable in my own body and I am still affected by everything that has happened to the point I became too reliant on my boyfriend and right now we’re working things out but I have to be honest and say this guy is struggling, but he’s being lazy and trying to give up. There’s alot more between us but that’s something that should stay private.
Why am I telling you all this? Because nobody knows besides my parents and boyfriend. Nobody. I’m sick of not even HER parents knowing. They wouldn’t do anything anyway but it’s still freaking horrible to be left in the dark about my experience. If murder was legal I would’ve ended this months ago.
So, I most likely won’t be posting a lot. Because this is a whole ordeal that I can’t juggle with a YouTube channel right now, I have school starting on the 14th of August and I have what I need to work out personally, with my boyfriend and on myself.
I’m not mentally stable but im trying to be. Thank you all for a great time on this channel, this isn’t the end indefinitely but this is for a little bit. I will be back soon enough one day and I will continue to animate and share my passion, but right now I can’t even stomach food so as you can expect art is just even harder.
Thank you guys
- BitterCyder
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Art fight team reveal soon :]
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Hey guys! Sorry I haven’t posted anything in a long while. I’ve been really busy, this past week I was actually in Texas at the Hilton Anatole for my mom’s work conference! (Everything was paid for by her work lol no way I’d afford that hotel)
But my dad and I were staff volunteers and helped out for an entire week. So I haven’t had much time lately to do much but I’m not that busy this next month!
I’ll be participating in art fight again this year and I’ll make a team reveal as always :]
You can check out my profile here: artfight.net/~BitterCyder
Here’s some new profiles for my characters! There’s one more but max images is 5! They’re low quality because it has to be 200 x 200 pixels lol. I’ll be working on a few new ref sheets in the mean time 🤏
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Guys guys, would you believe me if I told you i was getting a third cat
Name suggestions are very welcome ✅
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This guy wouldn’t hurt a fly
(Good thing you’re not a fly)
Anyway, this is Adrik! He’s been around since Off The Grid was started I’ve just kept him secret ;)
The original ref sheet is from July 2023 and the newer one is from today! (April 29th 2024) new animation with him soon maybe? 👀
(Click on it for the full images)
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King Ade 2024???
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New year new amethyst!
(Click for full image)
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☆ Hi, names Hannah but you can call me Bitter or Quill, I’m just a spunky animator 🧨☆
☆ I speak, English, German and Gaelic. I apologize if it’s difficult to understand me :,)
☆ Just your local frog and nature enthusiast 𓆏
🎵 My Favorite song is “Dizzy on the comedown - Turnover ”🎵
⚡️I animate with⚡️
Flipaclip
Ibispaint x
Capcut
iMovie
Picsart
☆ 🇩🇪 I’m German/Irish 🇮🇪 ☆
☘︎ My favorite holiday is Saint Patrick’s Day ☘︎
☆ 💚 My birthday is March 26th 💚 ☆
Not stating age, but I am a minor!
‼️Not a geuse supporter, anyone who tells you that is a goober‼️
⚠️ My channel is directed to 13+ audiences, my content may include themes you may find uncomfortable, please watch with caution⚠️