Hello. It's been awhile lol. It's hard to believe that three or four years ago I developed my channel in such a short amount of time. It seems like just last week on new years my first ever video featuring Jacey and Dillan reached over 42 thousand views. Just today I went through my phone and found my goodbye message to you all, and it brought me joy seeing so many people love my little creations. So much so it made me miss telling my stories.
I never gave a proper reasoning for why I left, and wiped my channel, and for that I am sorry. Unfortunately I cannot upload the videos again because they are far gone by now, but what I can do is explain myself.
I was in middle school when I created "Helping My Bully", if I'm remembering the title correctly. And as I grew older, more work was put on my shoulders. When I reached my freshman year of high school, I was so busy with homework that I couldn't find the time or energy to do something I really, truly loved. And as we all know by now, your first year of high school is when anxiety begins to hit the hardest. It was that year that I fully gave into the idea that gacha was "cringe" and I felt like I shouldn't be apart of the community anymore.
I'm a senior now. Crazy right? Anyways, after so long and after making new friends I've come to realize that I shouldn't let some ideal about a community stop me from being in a community. I loved making Dillan and Jacey's story, but I had this idea in my head that if I wanted to make a channel I needed to set deadlines.
I kept pressuring myself despite no one telling me how I should make my content, and as a result that love for creating wilted. (I also missed out on a huge opportunity with testing their relationship and ik y'all would've ate up that angst lol).
Having said this, I may or may not post a lil something. I can't promise to have things go back to the way they were, but I would like to begin creating again. I love telling stories and I even began writing a book titled "Stress Relief" (admittedly on wattpad but hey, Ao3 is fanfic territory what else am I supposed to do lmao).
Regardless, I apologize for my lack of explanation. Back then I didn't truly understand what it was that I was feeling and now I know that it was embarrassment that overtook my freshman mind. If I could go back and keep my content up I would, but sadly the videos I have made have been permanently deleted.
If anyone sees this and remembers my stories, thank you for your support. You all were amazing and I loved seeing your comments, it always made my day. Have an amazing life, and know that your words will forever hold a special place in my heart.
Just your average person trying to deal with reality. Caffeine anyone? ☕️