01:01:41

Not knowing is the only peace... relinquishing of control allows the body to come alive (Part 1)

16:33

There was never anything wrong with you... from the (imaginary) beginning [Clip]

01:19:53

The clarity that practices don't work... efforting your way to no-self just reinforces self (Part 2)

51:00

The burden of expecting happiness (Part 1)

02:39:56

The entire dream pops... the fraudulence of spiritual leaders becomes unbelievably clearly

18:02

Seeking was so dissatisfying (March Retreat Clip)

20:56

No-one's a beginner, advanced or more awake... everything flattens, everything's the same (Clip)

20:21

The gift of losing... the heart shatters open until there's no me and you (Clip)

01:56:52

The clearer it gets, the more disturbing humanity is... no more denying reality (Part 2)

01:33:45

Blind leading the blind... the bullsh*t we've been fed has become the fabric of who we are (Part 1)

28:39

Death of spiritual hierarchy and perfectionism (January 2024)

11:43

Pure love is beyond two (Clip)

02:05:37

Disillusionment reveals this unspeakable truth... spiritual and religious dogma veils it (Jan 2024)

14:14

You don't have to let go of anything... in fact, it's impossible to force it (November 2023)

02:02:02

This stunning absence... there's nothing more delicious (December 2023)

52:47

The spiritual path keeps you trapped & away from the simplicity of this...It's another belief system

01:45:37

My deepest suffering was believing that someone else knows... and I should too (November 2023)

27:27

No-self is the most difficult thing to go through but it's the only true freedom (Clip July 2023)

18:39

We're afraid of the truth, understandably... true emptiness is very rare (Clip June 2023)

41:26

Spiritual authorities also don’t know anything... the more knowing, the less I would trust (Clip)

28:53

No more stakes in the game... Does care still arise?... Fear is deeply ingrained... Inquiry?

37:28

Am I doing enough?... Innocence of wanting validation... This is what I've longed for but...

22:24

'Shameful' things happened cause I yearned to be seen... now it's clear that it's all pure innocence

43:57

What 'I'm seeking' is already... I'm allowed to feel rage... The hardest thing to do is... (Clip)

33:48

For the first time in this imaginary life... there's just nothing

01:05:45

The beauty of unfiltered expression _ Healer & savior identity _ Lostness _ Nothing's happening

24:25

Let me take you on a little journey... p.s. listen with eyes closed and perhaps an open heart

44:02

Life was never about me... but that was only clear after I was finally allowed to f*ckin' be myself

22:26

What 'awakening' actually is, is the death of the familiar... The 'person' doesn't wake up

16:27

THIS IS IT... no exclusions (Clip)

33:56

Gone are the days of over-giving

25:46

Home sweet home

42:33

Through darkness to the light

22:41

Free of any need

28:49

What surrender actually is _ No more specialness _ Awareness? _ Disgust [May & June CLIP]

30:47

There is no birth and death

19:13

Intense knot in my stomach & personal-will _ Need for control is uncomfortably obvious [May 7 CLIP]

17:33

I want to show you everything

40:24

The only way to see how untouchable you really are... The heart shatters open [April 30 CLIP]

24:55

My truth was forced out... and it became obvious that I never existed

22:22

GOLDEN LOVE | An invisible love story

16:09

There is no world

36:20

At your own funeral _ Releasing of freeze response _ All there is is unconditional love [CLIP]

27:50

I felt paralyzed and frozen... Loss of identity can be traumatizing (& healing)... #traumahealing

22:25

No continuum, the future is imaginary, anger isn't a problem [CLIP]

17:44

The body is stunningly neutral

25:34

I want security _ Can I trust anyone? _ Insanity of seeking becomes more obvious [CLIP]

19:00

What I wanted was an illusion but I needed to see it for myself

20:19

The loneliest I ever felt _ No more need for hope is the end of the search [CLIP]

18:42

Hallowed out... a shell of a character with no more gain & no more loss

22:39

Why this can feel like hell _ Cellularly purging _ Extreme Loneliness _ Special abilities? [CLIP]

15:17

I'm glad everything disappeared

24:42

Sexuality, objectification & validation _ Shield of separation is thinning & delicious sensations

17:23

Death of self, collapse of all structures & going to the darkest places (w/ ZDoggMD)

13:06

Conditioning was never yours to control

27:42

I don't want to be a 'me' anymore, there's so much fear, mind loses power & neutral witnessing

35:21

My biggest trauma... Reconnecting with the body & fully coming back to myself

22:56

Needing to know (original sin/eating from the tree of knowledge), body aches, trauma & eating habits

23:09

Healing an imaginary story that feels absolutely real until it's simply irrelevant

23:49

Pristine emptiness & vibrant life... Personal reality is a maze with no exit... nothing's needed