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in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
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My Story ππ
I don't even know what to say...
Let me begin with this. I lost my mom in July 2019. A month later, my husband, who I loved with every fiber of my body, beat me so bad that he almost killed me. I couldn't hide the bruises from my children at that time, so I needed to do what was right for my girl. So I decided then that I needed to escape from him. I wouldn't be a real mother if I made it ok for a man to beat a woman. I wanted to live for my children. It took me a year living with him after he beat me up. I wasn't in the position to just get up and leave. I attended counseling as much as I could afford to. During that year. 2020 Valentines Day, to be exact, I was ready to leave this world. It was so hard losing my brother, then my mom then lost my husband and best friend it was killing me. I signed myself into the hospital at my counselors request. My husband was furious that I chose then Valentines Day the day he never did anything for me prior. He bought me a cheesecake that year from the cheesecake factory and flowers. He was upset that I ruined his plan. Imagine that right.Β I got slammed to the ground while at the hospital from a tough guy security guard only because I wanted to go outside for a couple of min. Now remember I brought myself there. It was like one thing after another.
Moving forward to October 31st 2020, was the day I escaped. But because my husband had been fired just before for sexual harassment he was there. I had planned while he was at work. My daughter and I were given a place, and I hid there for a year before I was able to get out and work again. I was scared of him and his family. Then, while I'm working, I meet a "man" who came across as prince charming. Not someone I would have gone for. I'm not into muscle like most woman ok not my thing. But he came in and scooped me up. Treated me well for the most part, or so I thought given what I came from. He even bought a ring. We had plans on moving in and starting a life together. Only to have him send provocative pictures to lots and lots of women on snap. Hence, why I don't use snap. He knew I had issues with my husband and that years earlier. The betrayal was so very real. But ya see, I'm a forgiving person, and I know I shouldn't be, but my heart is my heart. I took him back. Only go have him push me out of my own door onto the ground. That was the last time I spoke with him. I then drowned myself in music. Music always seemed to help me when I was low. The fact is music helped me for everything. Then I decided to put forth on tiktok to give it a try. All I was doing was what I did every day. Getting ready for work and singing my heart out. To be honest, when I'm not at work, I was listening to music unless with family, of course. But my girls are older and I don't get to see them as much. So it's been lonely. This was the first time in 29 years I've been on my own. It's hard truly. My head was full of doubt, and life is showing me that people are just ugly inside. Then I found a Gem that brought peace to my days without doing anything different than what they were doing. It brought me joy each morning and each night. It restored faith and hope in me. It made me believe that maybe things will work out for me finally. These past 2 weeks, I've been so happy. Things were starting to finally look up for me. I got a promotion at work. I was filled with love or what i thought was. Only to have everything crash down in a matter of hours with no explanation. I'm lost,Β I'm broken. I feel hopeless again, and I truly don't know how much more of this heartache I can take. I'm trying not to let this world taint my heart, but it's making it very difficult.
So now that you know my story. I need to tell you that I won't be doing any more videos for a while, if ever. I'd like to say I have hope that I will return, but right now, that is not the case.
I will be posting my last 3 videos.
I'm sorry if I'm letting anyone down. I can't give you the happy me when I'm not happy. It was truly hard for me to even do this video that you will see. I'm not even listening to music. I don't have it in me to pretend I'm ok right now. I'm just crushed. Thank you for every video you've watched, liked, and shared. I really do appreciate it, wholeheartedly.
To You, I'm sorry if I upset you in anyway it was truly never my intention. I would have done anything π
One thing I am not is a liar. "I Will Never Forget You Ever."
((Videos will be posted at the usual time just Tomorrow early morning, not Wednesday))
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Goooood Mornin'!!! π
I just wanted to say thank you, to everyone who has subscribed to my channel and have taken the time to watch my videos. I appreciated you! ππΌ
If I can put a smile on someone's face or change their day for the better then that's what makes all of this worth it. A positive mindset is not always easy, but remember it's the little things in life that truly matter. We need to appreciate the people who have stuck by us regardless of how crazy at times we can be.
Remember to always stay true to who you are and never allow someone to taint your happiness in order to appease them. Be your authentic self always! π«ΆπΌ
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This Channel was created by an unique individual who just enjoys a wide variety of music and who chooses to share her mornings and moments with others. Possibly helping to uplift or even just to bring a smile to another's face. Life's to short for being anything other than who you are.