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ASMR VENUS
Posted 1 week ago

The weather has suddenly turned much colder in Korea. I went out to enjoy the last bit of autumn in 2024🍁 Today, I’m reminiscing about my precious son and will share a few lovely photos with you❤️ I hope you all make the most of this final autumn as well! 💛🍁

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ASMR VENUS
Posted 1 month ago

Hello, everyone.
I have another announcement to make.

Last week, one of my videos was forcibly removed by YouTube, and after two appeals,
the removal was finally overturned.
However, completely unrelated to that,
on the night the video was taken down,
one of my two dogs, 바람이 who have been with me since late 2009, started to fall ill.

My family has been raising a Maltese and a Yorkshire Terrier—my sons, my everything.
The Maltese had been suffering from liver and heart issues for over 7 years,
and we had been told that he didn’t have much time left.
The vets said back in 2019 that he only had a few years at best,
but through immense love and care, he lived for an additional 7-8 years,
which they called a miracle.

I’m so proud of my brave son for holding on for so long despite his ailing health.
From October 3rd, we rushed back and forth to the emergency hospital countless times, but today,
at 1:30 in the afternoon, he took his final breath.

Despite treatment with fluid therapy and medication to combat acute renal failure and dehydration,
his organs were already deteriorating due to heart disease and recovery was impossible.

In the arms of me and my family, his breathing became increasingly weaker and
slower, and he quietly passed away today. To be honest, I still can't believe it.
I feel like he's just lying down and sleeping next to me.

From October 3rd until now, I don’t even know how I’ve been getting by.
I’ve been so heartbroken, crying all day, shaking him desperately,
hoping he’d wake up. We rented oxygen tanks,
rushed to the hospital at the slightest sign of trouble—it was a grueling week.

For those who don’t have pets, it might be hard to fully understand,
but I’ve spent my entire life with dogs, and today, it feels like my whole world has collapsed.
My world stopped.

It seems that it is very difficult to focus on video production in this current state.
In my heart, I want to say a happy goodbye to my beautiful adorable lovely cute Maltese puppy(my son)
I think I will be able to produce videos when my heart is somewhat ready.

Between my video being forcibly removed and my dog's critical condition,
it’s been such a tough time.
I’m sorry to keep you waiting, but I won’t keep you waiting too long.
As soon as I gather myself, I’ll be back.

Born on September 28, 2009 and departed for heaven on October 9, 2024
Our son Baram, the most lovable, kind, pretty, and cute in the world
Thanks to you, I was so happy for 15 years
And I really loved you, I loved you so much that even saying "I love you" isn't enough
You don't have to take medicine you hate anymore
You don't have to struggle to breathe
Do what you want
Run around as you want
Eat what you want
Explore what you're curious about
You were always a curious child
I'm sorry I made you go alone first, son
Even as I write this, tears are flowing
I really love you 바람이
Let's meet again later

안녕하세요, 여러분.

공지할 게 또 하나 있습니다.

저번 주에 유튜브 측에서 제 영상을 강제로 삭제했었는데,
두 번의 항소 끝에 드디어 삭제 철회가 됐어요.
그런데 그거랑은 전혀 상관없이, 영상이 삭제되던 그날 밤,
2009년부터 함께 해왔던 제 두 강아지 중 한 마리가 갑자기 아프기 시작했습니다.

말티즈와 요크셔테리어, 두 마리는 제 아들이자 제 인생의 전부입니다.
그중 말티즈는 간이랑 심장이 안 좋아서 몇 년 전부터 오래 못 살 거란 얘기를 들었었죠.
수의사들도 2019년에 몇 년 못 버틸 거라고 했었지만,
정말 사랑과 정성으로 7~8년을 더 살았고, 그들은 그걸 기적이라고 했습니다.

아픈 몸으로도 그렇게 오래 버텨준 우리 강아지가 정말 기특하고 대견합니다.
10월 3일부터 계속 응급 병원을 왔다 갔다 하면서 할 수 있는 건 다 해봤지만,
오늘 낮 1시 30분에 결국 세상을 떠났습니다.

급성신부전에 탈수까지 와서 수액치료, 약물치료 등 할 수 있는 건 모두 다 해봤지만,
고질병인 심장병 때문에 이미 다른 장기도 거의 망가진 상태라 회복이 어려웠어요.
오늘 낮에 제 품에서, 그리고 가족들 품에서 점점 숨이 잦아들더니 결국 세상을 떠났습니다.
솔직히 아직도 실감이 안 나요
그냥 누워서 자고 있는 것 같아요

10월 3일부터 지금까지 어떻게 버텼는지도 모르겠어요.
너무 슬퍼서 하루 종일 울고, 미친 듯이 깨우고, 산소통도 대여하고
조금만 위급해져도 병원으로 달려가고...
그렇게 일주일을 보냈네요.

강아지를 키워보지 않으신 분들은 공감하기 어려울 수 있겠지만,
저는 평생 강아지와 함께 살아와서 오늘이 정말 모든 게 무너진 날이었습니다.
제 세상이 멈췄어요

회복하려면 시간이 좀 필요할 것 같아요.
지금 감정적으로 너무 힘들어서 영상 작업에 집중할 수가 없고,
무엇보다도 지금은 전혀 행복한 상태가 아니기 때문에,
이 아이를 제 마음속에서 행복하게 보내주고
조금 괜찮아지면 그때 다시 영상을 시작하려고 합니다.

최근에는 영상 삭제 문제도 있었고,
강아지도 위독해서 정말 힘든 시간을 보냈어요.
계속 기다리게 해서 정말 죄송합니다. 하지만 너무 오래 기다리게 하진 않을게요.
마음을 좀 추스르고나서 돌아오겠습니다.

2009년 9월 28일 태어나서 2024년 10월 9일 하늘나라로 떠난,
세상에서 가장 사랑스럽고 착하고 예쁘고 귀여운 내 새끼 내 아들 바람아
너 덕분에 15년 동안 정말 행복했고,
난 정말 너를 사랑했어. "사랑한다"는 말로는 부족할 만큼 너를 사랑했어
이제 너가 먹기 싫은 약은 안 먹어도 돼
숨 쉬기 위해서 가쁘게 호흡 안 해도 돼
너가 하고 싶은 거 다 해
뛰어다니고 싶음 실컷 뛰어다니고
먹고 싶은 거 있으면 실컷 먹고
궁금한 거 있음 실컷 탐구하고
너 호기심 많잖아
먼저 외롭게 가게 해서 미안하다 내 아들아
지금 이 글 쓰는 순간에도 눈물이 흐른다
정말로 사랑해 바람아
나중에 꼭 다시 만나자

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ASMR VENUS
Posted 1 month ago

I filed an appeal, but it was rejected within minutes. YouTube claimed that a scene where I give gum to a friend and comb violated their child safety policy. Yet, other YouTubers who posted similar content are fine, and there are even videos that seem to be more in violation, but they're untouched.

I was planning to create roleplays on various topics moving forward, but now I'm concerned that YouTube might arbitrarily delete my videos, issue strikes, or even terminate my channel like today.

I've put almost everything into ASMR, and if this kind of unfair treatment could happen again in the future, I'm honestly not sure if I can keep going. I need some time to think about it.

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ASMR VENUS
Posted 1 month ago

Hello everyone!
This is my first announcement
The school makeup video I just uploaded
was deleted for violating the child-related policy🤔
I can't understand it at all😡

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