Hello, everyone.
I doubt anyone would actually see this, but for anyone who's wondering where I've been since I haven't uploaded in a while, this post is made to answer that question.
I haven't been uploading in so long due to issues in my personal life, adhd paralysis, mental blocks, the low performance of my last video which I was really proud of, and the most recent tragedy, the passing of my 4 year old cat, Vanilla, on February 28th.
Vanilla has been one of the best parts of my life for the past 4 years since we had him. He made a positive impact on my life that few could understand. I've been grieving for the past few days over his passing, and it hurts.
I've made a video talking about his condition and me deciding to take a break to spend time with him before he kicks the bucket. And, now he has. His heart wasn't pumping his blood properly, it had extra irregular pumps between regular pumps, which had no blood in them, so not enough blood was circulating to his liver to convert liquids in his body to proteins that he needed to survive, and those liquids went to his stomach instead of his liver, causing it to stretch and expand, weighing Vanilla down and hurting him immensely.
Not even counting the inflammations in his teeth which didn't allow him to chew foods without pain, so we had to blend up his wet food into a slurry in order for him to eat it without pain. Vanilla was in a lot of pain before he died. We didn't put him down, but we made sure to take care of him until his last breath. The night before he died, I talked to him, told him how much I love him, showed him the film photo I took of him that I now have in my phone case to let him know that I will never forget him, I pet him and gave his forehead a kiss before saying goodnight.
And then the next day, at around 10 pm, he finally passed away. I am thankful to have been able to say goodbye to him as most people don't get that opportunity, but it still hurts knowing that I will never be able to pet him or hold him in my arms ever again. I've been breaking down consistently and having depressive episodes for the past few days. Tomorrow's Sunday, March 3rd, my 17th birthday. And I don't know how much I can really enjoy it, when I am grieving this much.
I'll do my best to get back on track to making videos again soon, and improving my mental health as I mourn over the loss over my best feline friend. I am sorry for the people who wanted or expected more from me, for I have disappointed you.
These are some of the last few pictures of Vanilla from last month, before he passed away. I hope you'll appreciate and remember him, as he deserves to never be forgotten at the very least.
Thank you for reading.
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PEOPLE.
While I continue to procrastinate on making the late 100 sub special, if you want more Phroggius, you can go check out my EXTREMELY awesome friend@ForestBoyProductions who I have collaborated with to make a video on the hit game Portal 2!
Watch as we both lose our sanity "co-operating" on these tests! And make sure to sub to Forest cause I had a BLAST making this video with him. Check out his other videos too, he's a great content creator and deserves recognition!
Yes the "100" sub special will come out "soon".
https://youtu.be/A-czdWBppL4
watch video on watch page
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Aight, it was hard coming to this decision. I'm cancelling my Like a Dragon: Ishin! review. Getting footage and stressing over the space of it was daunting and I forced myself into a work mindset, not allowing me to jus enjoy the game my friends got me as a present. It turned out to be a lot more than I could chew, and I haven't even started scripting yet. I still make these videos on my phone and I ain't ready to make such a big video. I can't burn myself out over this and make this feel miserable. I wanna make videos but not at the cost of my own sanity. Sorry to everyone who I got excited over Ishin and my perspective of it, but I can't make a video like this right now without it killing me. I need more experience. Thank you all for understanding, I'm sorry to have let you down.
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Gonna use their music for my future videos!
For anyone else who wants to make content without having to worry about using copyrighted music, check out Lud and Schlatt's Musical Emporium! They are making completely copyright free music for anyone to use, and I highly recommend using their tracks for any videos you wanna make.
Their channel will be linked in the pinned comment!
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Okay, folks! Since we are so close to 100 subs, I want you to decide on what you wanna see for the 100 sub special. These are the projects I would love to do for this milestone and you can pick whichever you want to see as the milestone video.
I will probably end up making all of these eventually, but you can decide which one will be the 100 sub special. After all, you guys made me and this channel into what it is now. So, thank you, all of you.
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Holy fuck. I didn't think we'd get this close, this fast.
Thank you all, so fuckin much.
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New video in the process of uploading!
Anybody miss me?
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Hey, guys. Just wanted to update you on some stuff. Content will slow down quite a bit for now, as my exams are nearing and I need to focus more on my own personal life.
There won't be many if any videos at all coming out this month, due to my education and my life outside of youtube. I hope you understand the content drought! After the 25th I'll have as much free time as possible to make all sorts of content!
Thanks for understanding.
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Wow, ya'll really said "lemme sub to this guy with piss poor content"
Thank ya guys so much for sticking around. I can't thank you enough for supporting my content. You all are the real ones. One left to 80, 21 more to a hundred!
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Oh, hi there! Ribbiting to see you here.
Just a man with a love of phrogs, and also loves to make fun content to try to make people smile.
I make whatever type of content I feel like making, so stick around and have a seat if you feel like it.
Profile art and sprites by Crystallix!