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TW: suicide/loss of a parent
Happy Valentineās Day. Itās long overdue but I wanted to share why I have been absent.
I thought that the worst thing that had happened to me in the recent past was my awful housemate situation, where I was bullied out of my rental and ending up moving back home. That was the initial reason why I took a break from Youtube because my housing situation was so stressful and I didnāt feel comfortable filming at home. But that was nothing compared to what my Dad was going through at the time.
Tragically on February 14th, 2023 my dad, Wally, chose to end his own life. He left behind his only sibling, his sister in Ireland, myself and my brother who is autistic. I donāt know if my brother will ever truly understand what happened and why his Dad isnāt around anymore. Words cannot express the deep sadness that I feel and the hole that he has left in our lives.
The guilt I feel is insurmountable and to know that we still had so many more memories left to make, hugs and laughs to share, questions I wanted to ask him, deep conversations we didnāt get to have. I didnāt get enough photos with him, I didnāt get a chance to write down all his favourite recipes. He didnāt get to see how his own life would turn out. He didnāt even get to go grey.
Valentineās Day will forever hold a special place in my heart, I hope my Dad knows how loved he truly was. The turnout for his funeral was amazing, I didnāt even know half the people there but to know all these people cared for him was something Iāll always cherish. My dad was an avid cyclist and was known as a ālegend of the hillsā as he loved the adrenaline rush of racing his cycling mates up the hill, it was so special to have his cycling community there for his final goodbye. He truly was doing everything he could to beat his mental health struggles; he had a community, he was looking after his physical health, he was attending a mental health group, he had a dog, he had tenants, he saw his neighbours regularly. It seemed like he was doing all the right things but the system failed him. Iām hoping to do a video at some point discussing some of what has happened, with the ad revenue going to a mental health charity. If you have any specific charity suggestions please let me know below.
Iām so sorry Dad, we miss you, we love you. I am glad the pain is finally over for you, may you rest easy ā„ļø
And if you yourself are struggling right now, with whatever it may be, please know that you are so so loved. There is light still out there. Reach out to those around you. Stay safe, keep going and take care.
Love, love, love
Quiet
Xxx
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Hey friends š I havenāt posted in a while, and just wanted to let you know Iām thinking of you. Iāve just been feeling really sad honestly. Once again Iām dealing with housemate issues and have to look for a new housemate and Iām just so tired of all the ups and downs that has come with this constant merry-go-round of different people in the house in the year Iāve lived there. And recently Iāve just felt really upset being at home which hasnāt been conducive to working on my channel. I wish I could be there for you on a more consistent basis. Sending you love š
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If you skip to 36:47 on this video I talk about all the future video ideas I have for my channel and long story shortā¦thereās a lot! So I would love for you to comment on the video(or this post) telling me what video topics you would be most excited for! Your feedback is SO important to me š«¶š»āØ
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Did you know this month it's Plastic Free July?! ā»ļø š šĀ
š WHAT SINGLE USE PLASTICS WILL YOU BE CHOOSING TO REFUSE THIS MONTH? šĀ Let me know down below šĀ
As many of you know I'm super passionate about sustainability, recycling & reducing waste so I wanted to let ya'll know about the Plastic Free July challenge!Ā
It's a campaign that actually started in my city, Perth, back in 2011. Last year, around 140 million people across 190 countries participated in Plastic Free July, reducing plastic waste by 2.1 million tonnes š±
The Challenge š«Ā
Choose 1 (or more!) single use plastics to avoid this month
Hereās some ideas to get your started:
- bring your reusable coffee cups with you
- bring your own bags to the grocery store
- skip the straw
- head to your local bulk store & BYO containers
- avoid buying plastic water bottles
This month Iāll be choosing to refuse
- plastic wrapped fruit & veg
- ordering Uber Eats (wish me luck with this one š
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- tea bags & opting for loose leaf instead
- packaged loaves of bread (Iāll be experimenting with taking my own bag to the bakery)
Remember itās just an experiment, see what works & what doesnāt - donāt be too hard on yourself if you mess up š„°Ā
Sign up to the challenge here:Ā www.plasticfreejuly.org/take-...
Don't forget to follow me on Instagram where I'll be posting about it throughout the month & sharing how I'm going with it: @callmequietasmr (www.instagram.com/callmequiet...)
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Hey Babycakes š¤āØ
Just letting you know that future videos will no longer have ads at the end of them. YouTube adds post-roll ads by default so after uploading I have to manually turn them off - I apologise for not realising/doing anything about this sooner. Hopefully it helps you to relax more knowing that there wonāt be a loud ad at the end āŗļø I still have to go back through my older videos to turn it off so please be patient with me as I do this and feel free to let me know if thereās any I miss.
And in case you havenāt seen it yet I just uploaded a new video all about all the content Iāve been consuming(hint hint: Euphoria š):
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Did a little life update video for you! In case you were curious what I was up to and why I stopped uploading at the start of the year šāØ
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š« New ASMR deep dive mental health video out now! 52 mins long! š«
This is the follow up video to the one I posted last year talking about my struggles with binge eating(watch it here: https://youtu.be/q-yiwziRbRI)
I hope this helps people understand more about binge eating and B.E.D.(binge eating disorder) as it's the most common ED yet we rarely hear about it and I think that further makes those suffering from it feel ashamed. Being secretive is a big part of what fuels the binges and food addiction so that's why I want to be open about it, normalise it and make people realise it's just like any other mental health issue; something that needs to be treated with love and compassion(& therapy!).
There's lots of mini story times throughout so I think you'll enjoy it regardless of your reason for watching/listening. Some of the things I discuss:
- where it all started
- fat shaming
- how it affected me during my high school exchange, college exchange and during the Disney College Program
- what I tried that didn't work (including that one time I went to an Overeaters Anonymous meeting š)
There will definitely be a part 3 at some point as I want to discuss my triggers and my healthier coping mechanisms instead of always turning to food.
If you're going through any sort of ED at the moment please know that I love you in your current state and am sending lots of healing and positive energy your way āØ
Always feel free to reach out to me(insta: @callmequietasmr) if you want to chat about it š
Love, love, love,
Shivi
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Hey Babycakes!
Sorry for ghosting you once again but I just wanted to check in with you all, I hope you are doing super duper well!
I promise Iām coming back with videos very soon, I have a really fun roleplay filmed that will be out within the week.
Iām currently writing this at the airport actually, Iām going away for 10 days to visit 2 of my close friends who moved away to work rurally during 2020. I canāt wait to spend some time with them as Iāve been so lonely here in Perth(3 of my close friends moved away during the pandemic) plus I know being in nature will be just what I need š³šāØ
I had meant to be all organised with filming before the trip but have been having housemate dramas which has been really stressful so Iām glad to be getting out of the house for a while too (Iāll explain in a life update video).
Make sure you give me a follow over on Instagram for updates/photos from my trip! @callmequietasmr
Love you and Iām sure Iāll be in your ears with new content real soon š
Love, love, love,
Quiet
Xx
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Just uploaded this one today babycakes!
Lots of close whispering and mic scratching in this one - super happy with how my whisper turned out in this one, I think itās because I had headphones in so I was able to hear how it sounded in real time. The items I bought were literally perfect as ASMR triggers! Plus hopefully the video will inspire you to make some sustainable swaps in your lives too - win-win!
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Hey friends, Iāve got a new microphone, the Blue Yeti X! I havenāt opened it yet as I thought Iād save it for a Mic Test video. So please do tellā¦what microphone triggers would you like to see in a video? š š
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