Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Hey my little demons!!!! Wowza, almost 2 years?? Oh my god! But hey, I’m currently working on fixing up the old laptop that ran MMD!! I’ll be back in no time now!!
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An Update
Hey my little demons. Long time no see, huh?
I know it’s been 8 months since I last updated with Fearless. It’s been a long time.
I figured I would give you an overall update on how things are going.
For starters, I left my old job in June because of Mistreatment and unfair management.
The company I worked for was very brutal. Having meltdowns almost every week. And even though I could’ve been making videos and such, I really needed to focus on my mental health and my physical health.
In July, my family took a long trip over to Nova Scotia and New Brunswick. I had probably the best vacation I’ve ever had in my entire life. It was an amazing feeling to spend so much time with my family after experiencing a very hectic workplace. The ocean was beautiful, as it was my first time actually seeing it. I could go on and on about how amazing this trip was, but I’ll save that for another time.
I gave myself a lot of time to sit and reflect on everything going on in my life. My friendships, family relations, etc. I let myself heal internally with the few things that actually made me proud and happy.
I haven’t found my passion for creating videos in a while. It all started when my laptop started to really act up and run so slowly that I couldn’t even get through making a small video. I ended up buying myself a desktop, but I don’t necessarily want to slow it down with MMD along with all of the other things I use the desktop for.
If you use MMD, you know it’s a large program that is fairly old. On my laptop, I tried having both Sims 4 (A video game) as well as MMD on it, and it almost messed up with the whole laptop in the first place. Mind you, I’ve taken off a lot of stuff from the laptop, in hopes that MMD can run smoother, but it did very little. Ever since then, I’ve sort of lost all interest in making MMD videos.
MMD for me, was just a hobby. I understand that some people use it to create a profit, have a following and be an aspiring Youtuber. And I encourage you to follow through with those dreams. But MMD for me was never about the amount of subscribers I had. Or the amount of views I had on a certain video. I just wanted to share a hobby with people who have a similar liking.
I do still like the idea of creating MMD videos. They’re absolutely stunning when you put in the time and effort to create something beautiful. But at the beginning of the year, I didn’t have the time or didn’t even try putting in the effort to make a good video. Hence why I sort of stopped. I don’t want to push MMD away from my creativity. I like making videos, it’s a lot more fun than some may think.
But at the same time, I have so many other hobbies that I follow through with more closely than MMD.
For instance, I wrote a 500 page novel in two years. And it’s complete. Probably the proudest I’ve ever been for a project. I’m in the process of writing yet another novel, and it’s difficult. But it’s also a thrill. That’s just what passion is. Even if it’s hard to do, you still follow through with it because it’s something you love to do.
I’ve also spent a lot of my time playing video games on my PS4. Like Hogwarts Legacy, Detroit Become Human, The Quarry to name a few. Video games are also a very large passion of mine.
Heck, I used to draw all of the time as a kid, but now I find little passion in doing so. I find it fascinating to create videos though. Like edits or creating something from scratch and making it real. But that’s a lot of hard work. A lot of filming, screen recording, separating and a bunch of other stuff that makes it a long process.
Right now though, in the month of September, I realize that following things that you are most passionate about is what makes life so exciting. Having one or two people in your life you can lean on is just what you need sometimes. Family time is important and creating things that YOU want to create is amazing. I realize that you should never create something for someone. Unless you truly want to. Create it because you want to make it. Create it because you want to make people laugh and smile.
As of right now, I’m jobless. But I’m creating the things that I love to make. I’m writing. I’m playing video games. I’m following up on the people who matter most to me.
My old job made me lose a lot of who I am. I lost so much of that person, Kano Kitten, that I forgot who I was. I was so dedicated to making my bosses happy, so focused on doing the job right and pushing my limits to please people who don’t care. It took a long time to realize that I’m worth more than that.
Truthfully, I miss making MMD. It used to be something I did every single day. And now I don’t even know what motions are made nowadays. I re-watch some of my videos sometimes, just to remember how proud I was of a video or something. It makes me happy to see my videos, to see the passion and the time I put into each video.
But right now, I don’t have the energy to post. I don’t have the tools to post. I don’t even have a video made, off in the corner just waiting to be posted. I’m in a rut with MMD. Have been for quite some time.
But I wanted to update everyone on what’s been going on. Why is there so little posting? What’s going on and why I haven’t been active in the MMD community.
I’m 21 years old and I’m understanding the meaning of self love. I do hope to go back to posting some day. Whether it be in the future, or around the corner, I’m not sure. But for now, all I can say is thank you.
Thank you for being here and thank you for waiting as long as you have. It means a lot.
That’s all for now, Kano Kitten, signing out.
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Hey my little demons!! Kano Kitten here!
I know it's been a hot minute since my last post. it was posted in February, and I can understand the irritation of lack of posting.
But as if February, my laptop has run into several issues and I haven't been able to make as many videos, or any videos of good quality at that fact. I am currently in the process of trying to fix it.
But along side of this, I also am working a lot more to save up for this summer. I am going across Canada to see my family, and I've been spending time trying to gain as much money from my job as I can, which means that I haven't gotten a proper chance to do anything MMD related.
Trust me when I say that I truly miss MMD and posting videos. I still love doing it, and I can't wait until I'm able to make videos again!!
I hope everyone can understand and I hope you can wait with me a little bit longer!!
Thank you everyone, I hope all of you are having a good spring so far!!
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Hello my little demons!! Kano Kitten here!
I post MMD videos whenever I get the chance to, and I try to make videos of good quality. I do also take my time to enjoy making the videos as well. MMD has been a very big passion of mine for quite some time now, and I also very much enjoy travel!
I am currently on a break as of February! I have been having trouble with my laptop and have been trying to get it fixed as well as heal my mental and physical health and.
I haven't been able to take time to make any new videos, but this will change when I come back properly.
As of right now, I hope you enjoy the videos I have uploaded!!
I hope you enjoy your stay with the other little demons that have subscribed to my channel!!
- Kano Kitten :)