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in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Final update:
I have been evicted today. During the last few weeks/months ive been trying my best to find a job but with no luck. I am going to spend the next few days trying to find a place to stay so i canāt be working on the channel during that time.
Thank you all for the donations and support. Without you all i wouldāve been in this situation a few weeks ago already. I will come back eventually. I canāt thank you all enough. I hope you understandā¦
If you would like to donate even just a small amount then i would appreciate that.
PayPal/email:nick-zwanziger@hotmail.com
Ko-fi: ko-fi.com/princemarth
Iāve been feeling really guilty about asking strangers for money. I will make it up to you all.I wonāt abandon this channel again. My guilt wonāt let me leave it all behind. I will be back.
My dms are always open. This will be the last depressing update. When i return there will be no more of this. Iām sorry. I hope you all enjoy the few new videos that i was able to make. I will try to be back with new uploads ASAP.
Goodbye for now and iām sorry.
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Channel/life update:
First of all iād like to thank you all for the support and the donations that iāve been getting. I never expected any support after not uploading for so long but i was wrong. I came back as a last resort and asked strangers for money on the internet which is as low as it can get.. but it turned out better than i expected and iām glad that i decided to be honest to everyone that still supports this channel.
Iām sorry for making some people worried. I did not mean to do so but i had to make a choice.. bottle my emotions up until theyād consume me.. or share it with the only people that i have left.. my old youtube community. If youāre struggling with these kind of problems yourself then please choose to reach out to someone/anyone. Thereās always someone out there willing to help. You can even reach out to me and we will try to figure it out together..
Unfortunately i will still get evicted at the end of this week.i have been trying my best to find a job but my chronic depression/ptsd makes it hard to find/keep a job. Iām going to keep fighting and use this channel as a sparkle of hope to keep on living after losing everything.
I will spend the next few days reuploading some old stuff since i do not have the mental to create new stuff at the moment. But i wonāt give up on the channel. I canāt just leave all the people behind that supported me over these last few days/years.
If youād like to donate, even just a little bit. I would highly appreciate it. But please donāt feel obligated to. Itās still my battle to fight after all, but i could use some helpā¦
PayPal/email:nick-zwanziger@hotmail.com
Ko-fi: ko-fi.com/princemarth
my gratitude towards the people that already donated/send me dms is beyond believe. I canāt thank you all enough. Sorry for the negative community posts.. this is supposed to be to be a comedy channel mainly..I hope that we can go back to that soon. I will keep fighting for that. God bless yāall.
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Update for those who still care.
I felt extreme emberrassment but also despair while writing this..
It has not been going well for me at all. after i lost my job as a youtuber, things started going south. I lost a lot of people that i cared.I felt like i could still deal with life and all the traumas that ive been dealing with because of my gf... but she left me some months ago. Ever since then life just doesn't seem worth living anymore. And it's not just because of the break up, but because of everything that has happened to me before that time period as well.
I feel so alone. I am alone.
IIm a 29yo wiith no money/job, no social circle, no parents or any family members left. I tried to take my own life last december but failed. Since then i've been trying to get my life back together. I have multiple therapists and other mental help professionals surrounding me but it's not getting me anywhere. It has to come from within. I''m the one who's suppose to make the change but i cant... i can't get all these negative thoughts out of my head.
I can't focus on making videos with this chronical depression/ptsd. I really want to make people laugh etc but i can't do that when i'm drowning myself. I have nothing left to live for.. At this point i'm going to be homeless.
i hate asking people for help. Especially strangers online but i am in such a desperate situation right now that it's worth a try so if you enjoyed any of the videos that i've made at all. if you'd have some money left and you would want to donate some to me i would really appreciate it. It could buy me some time.. If anyone actually donates i'll be more than happy to do something in return. I cant make you a personal bleach meme video that you can post on your own channel... something like that.. I don't know. I don't like taking without giving something in return. It makes me feel guilty... but here is my paypal/email..
PayPal/email:nick-zwanziger@hotmail.com
Ko-fi: ko-fi.com/princemarth
antyhing helps at this point...
I'm the one to blame for this. i made all these bad choices. I'm not blaming anyone else for my actions.
'm sorry to the few people that still had faith in this channel. I know what it's like to have something during the day that just takes away all your pain for a few hours or so... I took that away from some people and i'm sorry for that.
Update 8/7 2024: Thank you all for the nice words/donations it is helping me more than you think. I'm so thankful for all of you.. I never thought that there were people out there who actually cared about the person behind these videos but i wss wrong. I promise that i will try my best to overcome my issues and get back to making people laugh once again.
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Final Channel update...
Long story short:
I haven't been able to resolve the problem with youtube. It had nothing to do with copyright but instead i got demonetized because of Reused Content ( basically them telling me that i dont add enough value to these Bleach clips )So i deleted them in order to try and get monetization back but it didn't work so.. Anyway I will spend the next few days reuploading my deleted Bleach memes. I won't be creating any new videos anytime soon.
The Very Long story:
I wasn't sure whether or not to make this post but i'm doing it anyway since i have nothing left to lose. Didn't want to make a video about it since a community post is going to bother less people which is good. I feel like i can't just disappear from youtube without saying anything so here's a "ittle" story about what happend
So It all started with me wanting to make BBS content. Eventually my BBS videos started to get a lot of attention in the BBS community and the views were going up. Seeing how my views went up gave me a lot of motivation to keep making videos . I always knew that i could bring something new and interesting to the BBS community and to see it work out was a great feeling. I started to be way more creative with the BBS videos that i was making and i was having a lot of fun doing it. I was learing how to edit as i kept making more videos as it became a fun hobby.
But i was starting to sacrifice a lot of my free time just to make these videos. My performance at my actual job was getting worse and my social relationships were fading away because i was too focused on making youtube videos. People around me kept telling me to stop doing youtube because it was damaging my life as i was putting way too much effort into it while making no money from it as i had an actual job. I kept telling them that this was something that i was not willing to give up as i had so much fun with it, i really felt like i could make a change. I told them that i would try my best to find a balance between my Youtube and my actual life/job.
Unfortunately i wasn't able to find a balance between the 2. I was starting to put even more time into making youtube videos and focused way less on those who were needing me to be there for them irl. I was doing youtube like it was my full time job even though it wasn't. Consistent uploads are key on youtube so making more videos was one of the ways to go so i did just that. I was being selfish and obsessed with youtube so i lost contact with some of my best friends because i was so invested into youtube. The only way that i could keep doing youtube was for me to actually make a living from it so that i could leave my actual job behind and have more free time for everything else.
Then the new Bleach trailer came out and i made a for fun edit called "Getsuga tenshou but he actually says it" It blew up right after i uploaded it. It ended up getting 2.5 million views before it was deleted. After that i remade the trailer and added in some sound effects and voice lines. My videos were getting a lot of views and they were being shared everywhere. I wasn't sure what to do with all the attention on my videos but i felt like it was a big opportunity to do something. Eventually i decided to create Bleach memes. The first few i made got a lot of attention but i felt like it was just because of the hype surrounding the trailer. So i thought that it was just pure luck.
But the memes that i created were only getting more and more views over time and the like to dislike ratios were super good which is what made me realise that it wasn't just a phase but that what i created was actually really good according to a big group of people. It felt like a dream come true and unlike those Getsuga Tenshou/trailer edits i was actually starting to make money with these Bleach memes which was absurd to me. For a moment i felt like continuing youtube was the best descision i ever made despite sacraficing so much to get upto that point. I didn't understand how i was making money with these memes while not getting any copyright strikes but the possibility of making youtube my actual full time job became somewhat of a possibility which i never thought off before.
I got scared of having my channel deleted because of potential copyright strikes so i started to put much more time and effort into transforming and editing these memes as time went on. 2 months passed without getting any copyright strikes as i was making a living with youtube while i still had my actual job. The views only went up as i felt confident enough to say that i was actually really good at what i was doing with BBS content as well as the Bleach content. I decided to focus less on BBS content and more on the Bleach content. But of course making almost daily Bleach memes required a lot of time/effort and editing.I couldn't keep making videos without balancing it with my actual life.
My actual life was starting to fall apart so i felt like i had 2 choices. I could either quit youtube and get my actual life back together or i could quit my job and do youtube full time. Not having to worry about my actual job would give me more time to get my life together while doing youtube. And since i felt like i couldn't let youtube go.. I decided to make the choice to give up the dream job that i already had and gave it up to do youtube full time. Youtube was no longer a major problem in my life as it became my fulltime dream job and for 3 months after that tthe descision of quitting my job, i was living the dream life. I was a full time youtuber. It was the life that i never ever thought about having. It never crossed my mind that i wanted to become a full time youtuber. I didn't even have to show my face or speak. I couldn't believe that Bleach, the anime that i watched and grew up with more than 10 years ago would eventually end up meaning so much more to me. My channel felt like the Soul Society of Bleach where everyone came together to talk about Bleach.
Of course all good things come to an end and 2 months ago youtube demonetized my channel because of Reused content which was somewhat of a surprise to me. I always thought that if i were to be demonetized or have my channel be removed that it would be because of copyright.. and i would've been okay with that if that were to happen. But that was not the case... I never had any copyright issues so i thought that i was transforming these clips enough, but i wasn't and it took youtube 6 months to let me know about it. I knew that it wasn't going to last forever because i thought that copyright would eventually get to me so i did save up some money in case something like this would happen.
The only way for me to make youtube work was to delete videos of which i thought would be seen as reused content ( youtube doesn't tell you which videos specific videos they're talking about so you have to look at their rules and take somewhat of a guess based on those rules ) and get my monetization back .Just the thought of deleting everything i made was making me feel terrible. I couldn't do it so i decided not to delete anything and was planning to just get my old job back. I never started youtube because of money so there was no chance that i was going to delete all those videos/comments etc and take them away from so many people that loved to watch them. No way that i would ever delete all that work. So i went back to my actual life.
However i got rejected when i was trying to get my old job back. Quitting didn't give a good impression. I haven't been able to find any other sustainable jobs either. Time was running out and i became desperate.. so i took a look at youtube and ended up deleting almost all my videos ( of which i thought was seen as reused content ) hoping that it would give me my monetization back as i would be able to make the type of content that was still left on my channel while having a second channel for everything that i deleted and occasionally make videos on that channel while working on this channel.
Unfortunately i didn't get my monetization back even after deleting all those videos. So i deleted them all for nothing. It didn't matter. I should've never deleted them to begin with. All those comments/views/likes.. That little Bleach history i had on my channel. All gone. Because i panicked and lost my income. I feel so bad for deleting them.. Only because i made the stupid descision to quit my job and kept doing youtube even though i knew that using anime clips was never a safe thing to begin with. I pushed most of the people that cared about me away because i was having so much fun with youtube. Somehow I thought that i could make it work out in the end.
Since i deleted so much watch time my videos won't be recommended as much anymore so there's no way that they're ever going to get the amount of views that they used to have. But i believe that if something is actually good that people will see it eventually. If my videos really were that good then that shouldn't matter.
Now i'm pretty much at rock bottom because of the stupid choices that i made. I'm left with nothing.. It's better for me to leave youtube behind until i have my life back together. I really love making Bleach Brave Souls/Bleach content as i hope that i'm able to return someday. I'm glad that i was able to fill in most of the waiting time for the return of the Bleach anime with my videos while also introducing a lot of people to the anime with my videos. I'm glad that my videos made a good impact on some people out there.
Even if i won't be coming back then i believe that there are tons of other people out there who could take my place and do it even better than i did. Thank you for listening and all the support that my videos have gotten in the past.
Goodbye.
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Important channel update...
Most of my Bleach videos/memes have been causing problems with youtube for the past month or so as i've been trying to resolve this issue for a while now. I ended up having to delete almost all of the Bleach related content. I still have like 90% of the videos on my hard drive. I will either reupload them to this channel or make a second channel and upload them there depending on the outcome of this problem.
I'm not really in a good mental state right now due to reasons ( This youtube problem being one of them ) That's why i haven't been uploading for more than a month now even tho i still have plenty of bleach/bleach brave souls video ideas left. Either way i will reupload these deleted videos eventually.. hopefully.
I really want to keep making videos but right now i just can't bring myself to do it. I'm sorry.
That's all for now. Thanks for all the support.
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