Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Hey everyone! I know, I've been gone for a long time. I kept thinking I'd be back any day so I didn't update and the longer I left it the more notifications I had and the more overwhelmed I felt. I'm about to come back and I wanted to explain what's been happening properly.
Trigger warning for death and metal health......
My Aunty died in August (I was named after her) but I thought I was okay. Then my cousin died a month later and it hit me more. I then took full time away and focused on my day job and family and girlfriend and just making it through the days. I didn't live a healthy life style at the time and kinda spiraled with my mental health. I got back on track pretty quickly with the help of my friends and a therapist. Side note: Therapy is amazing if you're honest and want to get better, I recommend it to everyone!
Then at the end of Oct my best friend from when I was 15 died from depression.
I want to get back to reactions but a big part of my resistance is.. what do I say? I don't want to gloss over my grief but at the same time I don't want to be a downer when reactions are supposed to be entertaining.
I've decided to tell everyone here, in this post what's been happening so that I can quickly comment in my first reaction back before just getting into the shows.
Tv has been my escape from reality whilst holding it up to my face since I was 12 and it's one of my biggest joys in life so im coming back and I'm coming back soon!
I just wanted you all to know what has been happening and to explain my extended absence. Some of you were worried and while I would never want anyone to worry it IS heartening that people care; especially on the Internet π
I appreciate you all and I hope the Americans amongst us are enjoying their weekend with their families/friends/animals. Obviously everyone else around the world too but it's "thanksgiving" innit π€·ββοΈ
35 - 12
My new laptop came and I have questions/information! π
Buffy people!
I want to do a Q&A video for the whole first season of Buffy. Do you have questions? Want me to clarify something? Wanna know who's my favourite? Ask me anything π
I have full versions on my Patreon so I was able to save them and edit for YouTube. The next episode will be out in a few days and I start recording season 2 next week π
HSMTMTS people!
I'm gonna catch up over the next week or so and then I'll be uploading weekly. Full episodes on my patreon on the day of release and then YouTube versions a day or 2 later π
The Wilds people!
Unfortunately my footage has been lost. I'm still hoping to recover it and I'm getting a lot of help!
If I can't recover it would you be interested in a video where I basically review the rest of the season? I can talk about my favourite parts and answer questions? I'm also fuming about the cancellation so it might be part rant video π
Let me know in the comments!
P.s This photo was taken after 2 hours of sleep so I KNOW I look a mess :)
27 - 10
Hey so thank you all for your understanding and support!
I've had a very generous donation from a patron that has got me more than half way to getting a new laptop and now I need between Β£300- Β£800 to help me get the exact laptop I need. The difference in money is in storage like I can deal with 500 and something mg but it would be best to get a 1tb+ plus I need 16gb ram in order to run my software so the laptops aren't cheap.
I have been encouraged to ask for help so I'm doing it, I do feel kind of shameful but I think that's just my upbringing and I need to get over it. I'm also trying to avoid gofundme charges so I'm gonna put out a couple other ways to help me.
I will be transparent in my purchases and prove that the money bought a laptop (I know some people are big on that)
So my PayPal is @carolanndunnell
My Cashapp is Β£ChatCaz
Some of you understand that I don't really have a mega audience so I really do appreciate all of you. If you can't afford to contribute that is perfectly okay and I still love you but if you can then I really appreciate your help.
Again no matter what, I appreciate all of you and either way I'll be back pretty soon!
30 - 5
Aye up! I hope you're all well!
So my laptop died. It was acting up this past couple weeks and then it just wouldn't boot. Long-ish story short, my hard drive is fried and there's no saving it.
I have no way of editing or uploading reactions and honestly trying to save for a new laptop is gonna take a while. I'm really gutted and this week overall has been horrendous and all I can say is I'm sorry I've left things incomplete and as soon as I can get a new laptop I will continue these journeys that I've started, some spanned years and its honestly devastating.
I understand if you don't wanna wait but if you're still here when I get back I would very much appreciate it!
Thanks for watching so far and ill still be around to chat in the mean time. Again I'm just sorry π
38 - 19
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
I hope you're all well :)
I've had a break from YouTube for a couple weeks but I'm getting back into the swing of things and if you've left a comment recently I will be getting back to you soon.
My next round of reactions will be for Motherland: Fort Salem and they will start coming out in the next few weeks but I'm also hoping to get some ideas from YOU!
Is there anything you would like me to react to or any other ideas for videos that you would like to share?
Let me know on this post!
and I just want to thank you for watching and interacting with me this past year :D its been a ride and its just the start!
12 - 8
Aye up!
I love a good show, ship and queer character.
All three are what my dreams are made of so please point me in the direction of any TV shows with them.
I am going to mainly be reacting to shows and clips on this channel although im not ruling out discussions and rants.
Join me for a chat!