Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Hey y'all - LONG time no see. :D
This will be my final update for this channel, and will also act as my parting words for the people who have stuck around since the very beginning.
First thing's first - everything is back up as public. Every single (finished) video. This includes my Original Vocaloid Muisc, Vocaloid PVs, and 3D animations I've made with SFM and MMD (those are on a seperate channel, so I've bundled them up in playlists and sorted them in the front of my channel home page).
Second - this channel will stay dead, unfortunately. BUT! It will remain up as an archive. For the MANY years people have enjoyed my content - and for the MANY people who have supported my stuff - this is for you.
There are stuff here that I'm still not happy with. Things I made that I'm not proud of - and that I probably will never be satisfied with. Things I think are cringy as FUCK looking back on it - and immature, angry shit that I can only explain as 'A Severe Lack of Maturity' (I am a petty, ANGRY fuck sometimes, and I own up to everything I fucked up on. Trust me, I STILL fuck up A LOT).
But - even then, I recognize that there are people who still want to see my works - people who have LOVED my creations, imperfect as they are. And athough I'm not proud of the things I've made and the paths I've chosen at times, I recognize that there are people who... still care, ya know? People who care about what I have made. People who relate to what I've gone through.
People... who find comfort in what I left behind.
And all I can really say to that is this.
Thank you.
I don't know how to express this. I don't know if I'll ever even find adequate words to express this - the correct way to describe how I feel. But...
Thank you.
That's all I really know how to say.
Thank you.
I'm sorry I left, without even a word of notice. I'm sorry I worried some people with the things I made - the harm I've inflicted on some people's lives with my own actions - and the path I chose to take. I'm sorry.
But still... Thank you.
It's been a wild ride from start to finish, and my life, unfortunately - is still in the midst of it. I think we're ALL going through it atm, one way or another. The world is in chaos rn, and I'm still very much worried for the people I care about. The people I used to care about, as well.
Stay strong - if you can. Find comfort in anything you need to. Keep holding on - and keep moving. Even in spite, even in bitterness... Even in pain.
There may be no reason for us existing on this planet - there may be no reason for us to keep staying alive. But I believe that we can make it - a reason for us to stay.
There is no right - or wrong, in surviving. Living on, ONLY because of spite, ONLY because of rage, and hate - is as valid as living for the people you love. Living for the people (and maybe animals) in your life who care. Living for the love you can receive - and the love you can give. We don't need a REASON to be alive, we don't NEED to be right. We don't need to give a justification for being alive, and taking the paths we CHOOSE to take. The harm we choose to inflict - and the love we choose to give.
If we don't have a reason to exist - we can create it with our own, two hands. We can create our own reality - in whatever way we choose to do so.
I'm sorry for the long-ass rant, and I'm sorry for popping up, out of the blue just to disappear again, lol. But I wanted to say a proper goodbye. Pay homage to a part of my life that I... Still love, despite everything.
This will be my last time here - and I want these to be my final, parting words.
Thank you.
Another night - a new dawn. In the place of the dreams that we've killed, another dream we can create. If we so choose to continue on, there will be another night.
A new dream.
:)
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aight.
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Medicated hallucinations weren't supposed to be part of the deal - but according to the fine text written on their mercenary contract, it was in their job description.
When a Pyromaniac wakes up from a dream they were forced into seeing - who's to stop them from burning down every bridge that ever lead to that path?
Through destruction, fire, and ash - the ghost of a mirage is born.
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Afterburn Chapter 1 - Pyroland's Ghost
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Trailer out now. It's gonna be the first vid in a series of 5 videos.
https://youtu.be/xbqRX5Vn-zY
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here have 10 seconds
its been like. fucking how many years since I last animated in sfm??? goddamn
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Hey guys can I make this an sfm animation channel again
Cause goddamn tf2 animations be making me feel a certain way
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so I fucked up tonight's stream - I didn't check the stream key in obs and I started streaming like an absolute dumbass for like an hour and a half.
I was literally talking to myself, alone, in my room, for a GODDAMN HOUR. (basically kill me)
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Dead channel. Quite literally an archive of Unfiltered Mental Illness :D
Thank you guys for supporting me while this channel was active. I really do appreciate all of you.
If you want to check out my new music, I'm active on the new channel linked on this bio. (@EmbeddedSystems_Shius)