mimic. you don't have to fit into a group, aesthetic or anything. the world is too big for that, so is your life. your constant need for assurance and acceptance has brought you to uneasy experiences and possibly even bad crowds. wrong place wrong time? not to bring you down, but if you aren't your authentic self others can think of you as two faced or cold, because of the mask you create, maybe to hide your uniqueness or just pain. pain from being excluded previously or ignored. all this pretending could also really get to you, ending up the same as them, the rotten and toxic ones. at what cost?