ahEM AHEM-
[LONG STORY SHORT: IM BACK, I WILL TRY TO POST ATLEAST TWICE A MONTH, I'M SO SORRY FOR DISAPPEARING BUT APPARENTLY I HAVE THE WILL AND HEALTH OF A SICKLY VICTORIAN CHILD, IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED I WILL POST STUFF UNRELATED TO PLAYLISTS AS WELL (perhaps on a separate account/platform)?? I MISS READING EVERYONE'S COMMENTS ššš, WE HATE EXAMS CHAT]
For those who don't mind wasting their time at my giant yapping:
Exams are kicking me in the ass, mental and physical health dipped for a bit, but hey I'm ALIVE (aka I'm so done with studying that it has led me back to youtube. Professional procrastinator fr fr )
I know I sort of disappeared for like- a year. A lot of things were going on in personal life and youtube wasn't letting me post for a while (along with blocking videos), so for a period of time I decided to give up on youtube all together.
However, I checked my inbox today and a lot of comments were wishing for me to come back. I found them so sweet that I just had try to post again, so I'm really grateful for everyone's support š„² I've seen some notifications before, but I tried to put it at the back of my mind because I knew if I read them I would come running back LMAO.
I know I just make playlists and that's nothing really special, but I love listening to music and it's been great to share it with so many people. Even if engagement won't be as high as before, I honestly don't care. Reading people's comments and stories make my day so much and I would love to do it again.
Academic-wise, I still have a lot to do (gotta farm for that CV so I can get a j-j-j-job *gasp* in the future), but I'll try to post weekly/bi-weekly starting from now if I can get verified and deal with the copyright accusations from yt TvT
I'm sure most of my subscribers are here for music recommendations and such, but if you guys are interested in other things that I do (eg. an art account), I'd be willing to share!
A little vulnerable yapping:
At the peak of my account growth, I was really happy but still quite scared of having a bigger following than I could have ever imagined, as I only decided to start this account for fun (it's been 4 years, crazy). From running this account 'just for fun' to being worried about views and pleasing others; I think that mindset also took a toll on me. Adding to that, I was quite young when I started this account. When people disliked something I posted, I found myself scared or pressured because at the time I wasn't sure how to deal with it.
After a break and while on the brink of abandoning this account all together, I realized that the SIZE of engagement didn't really matter. It's incredible to have 84 000+ subscribers, but I should be doing this like I have from the beginning: For fun. To make playlists that people resonate with and make daily activities or emotions a little easier to bear with for anyone listening. I don't mind taking requests, but I hope it's understandable that I won't do all of them, and only those I think will appeal well with the public (or that I personally like).
This has been a really sweet community, and I would love to get closer to you guys by sharing more about myself. For a long time , the fear of having my identity disliked has always been a weak point of mine. Again, I don't actually expect anyone to be reading my heck load of yapping (because I just put playlists together after all), but I'd really like to get it off my chest! Thank you again for those who have been listening to my playlists. It may not seem like much, but it's really wholesome to see people enjoy music together.
Also, my aliven't ass coming back from the dead:
207 - 53
Waaah I've been trying to post recently by I keep getting blocked by Youtube TvT Please bear with me, I'll try to upload soon! I'm sorry for not posting playlists in a while D:
Edit: I tried posting again and I'm still blocked c r i
619 - 35
Hi everyone :] Slight problems with posting right now, youtube is currently gatekeeping me and non-notification youtube users from seeing the new playlist and I'm not sure why. It might take a while to fix so I'm really sorry in advance!
Here's the link to the playlist if you were wondering! Should be accessable: https://youtu.be/mfpVhED85O0
In the meantime have this lil achievement I managed to catch 2 weeks ago, nice job guys >:)
575 - 14
Merry Christmas everyone! o(^ā½^)ošWishing everyone an awesome time and a happy day!
New playlist is out now :)
562 - 9
Whoās excited for Christmas? >:) Iām sorry I wonāt be posting this week because I wonāt be having my computer for a few days, but Iāll definitely make a playlist in around 4-6 days! Hope everyone has a good week (Ā“ā½ļ½)
439 - 10
*insert creaky dying goblin noises*
Hi there! It's definitely been a while, I'm really sorry for suddenly going offline, I've been staying at the hospital for the past 2 months (Nothing serious of course-) and I wanted to focus on my mental and physical health so I stopped posting for a bit.
I'm doing much better now and will (hopefully?) be discharged soon so I'm ready to start making playlists again >:))) If you have some playlist suggestions feel free to comment them, though please understand that I won't do all of them and only the ones I'm comfortable with.
Thank you so much for staying around, I really appreciate it :] <3
392 - 28
WOOP HI IM ALIVE
I am so so sorry for suddenly going poof for a month :'D
My mental and physical health decided to commit rag doll physics and plummet down the drain which took my motivation to post playlists down with it, but I'll hopefully improve now so I'm going to try my best to start posting regularly again, it's my goal to post at least once a week so this is just a heads up for the ones sticking around :]
(I'm gonna post in a few days I swear (ąøą¹ ā¢Ģ_ā¢Ģ)ąø)
567 - 13
WHOAAAAA WEāRE AT 10K SUBSCRIBERS :D WE DID IT WOOOOOOO
Thank you if youāve subscribed or viewed my videos, I canāt believe weāve gotten this far in a couple months, I hope you enjoy my content Iām really grateful for the support Iāve been receiving. 10,000 is a lot to me and this makes me so friggin happy- Thank you for sticking around ;u;
(And also, special thanks to āŖ@Hitorisnevergonnagiveyouupā¬ for introducing me to this whole playlist making thing and for supporting me at the very start, I couldnāt have done it without you. Another special thanks to @JustACartoonfanatic for commenting on every video of mine and showing support, your comments are always so sweet :])
235 - 9
WOOOOOOO IT'S PRIDE MONTH HAEFHRIUGIURT YUSSSSSSSSSSSS SHOUT OUT TO ALL MY FELLOW LGBTQIA+ GREMLINS
I wanted to make a pride/LGBTQ+ playlist today but I have exams tomorrow and I needa study so I'll be posting one later on this week or next week :]
1.3K - 26
I have no reason for posting this but like
WOMENNNNN OH MY GOD WHY ARE THEY SO PRETTY AIQUDWHEIFUGHRTGIOURTIUGHTRIOGHIURTOHG JUST- YESSSSSSS
ok yup thank you for coming to my ted talk
By the way thank you for 6.09K subscribers :DDDD (69 holi numba MWHEHEHE)
546 - 10