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Marverick
Posted 4 years ago

I created this YouTube channel when I was 13 years old, and it was then where I'd create a plethora of content for the My Little Pony community, such as Drawing videos, and how to draw tutorials for characters people wanted to make for themselves. I was basically a starter artist channel in 2012.

I am 22 now, and I have literally no idea what I could possibly do with this channel. The idea of creating MLP Art, let alone tutorials, died a very long time ago, for various reasons, be it change of age and the people I associated with who were very toxic to me.

I had thought about making a rant channel a few years back, but it never successfully happened. It was clear I was not a good ranter, and me whining about topics that happened and topics that were out of my control would only cause more issues in my life, be it the very damaging situations I was in from 2013 to the present day.

I honestly have no idea what else I could possibly do on this public Youtube channel other than talk. I would love to draw tutorials again, that's for sure, art is still my passion and I draw commissions for those willing to support me on my deviantART, but I would need certain equipment to do drawing videos again such as a camera stand to display my work, and at the same time, I can't say my artwork is as skillful enough to take care of a YouTube channel.

Plus, with YouTube's dying community standards and terms of service that are littered with bias by it's staff, I highly doubt that I could survive on a platform where you could be banned for doing something as simple as slipping a Swear in a video.

I wish I knew what else I could do on this channel other than mass comment on other videos, so let me just say it now to whoever else's channels or usernames aren't dead and can still see my status posts somehow.

This YouTube channel was one of my greatest beakens of healing and relief from the world of my abuse. I was diagnosed with Complex-Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, due to the abuse of family members during the times I had made the videos that blew up in the MLP community years and years ago. I was suffering with trauma and Asperger Syndrome, Severe Anxiety, and a lot of loneliness.

When I was young, I found this channel to help me drastically with my abuse at home, as I felt genuinely loved by people, even if I never knew who any of you guys were.

I want to thank you all, dead accounts or not, for pushing me through my very difficult teen hood.

I live in my own apartment now, taking care of my pets, and taking care of myself and my continuing art journey.

I hope that all those who watched me as a kid became more embrasive of their lives as adults, even in this difficult year, and I hope you are all doing well today, and every other day after it.

Thank you all for those eight or so years of support that pushed me to keep going, even in my most difficult times.

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