Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
1k, I did it somehow, unbelievable.
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It's weird starting fresh, on one hand I'm happy that I can focus on making original content without worrying about whether any of the attention is actually deserved or not.
On the other starting with nothing again makes it kind of hard to start, I really have to think it out this time if I want to make these new channels work.
One of them will be a dubbing channel, that's simple enough but the other will be more of a mixed bag, the latter channel may be difficult because I keep thinking "somebody's already done this" but I'll get over it.
It's not about whether it's been done or not, it's about adding your own flavour and maybe going more in-depth in places where somebody else has not.
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The goodbye video was literally supposed to be uploaded RIGHT after I posted that but I wasn't happy with it, I couldn't do anything with it after that because I was away on a holiday.
At this point I doubt anyone cares or is even reading this but I'm still gonna give this channel an actual send-off, then I can FINALLY get around to the stuff I wanted to do once this channel is done.
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I'll still be commenting using this account because I'm too lazy to switch to another account.
There will be a final video but otherwise all activity is ceased for this account.
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Goodbye
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I'm glad that when Sniperior comes back she will have something to be happy about and surprised by, still I wish some of you would subscribe to her, the video wouldn't exist without her contributions, seriously.
Whatever, I can't tell you all what to do, she's a very humble person so I'm sure she doesn't mind but I do alright?
Anyway, tomorrow I'm planning on getting new accounts set up, so some videos have poof! Disappeared! Specifically other videos with my voice in there.
For now "Why can't we see dreams?" is unlisted instead of private because this dub helped that video get a lot more attention, deserved attention at that.
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I've had this new camera for a little over a week now, it's the Canon R50 mirrorless for anyone wondering, I'm paying this off over a few months but I do not regret it at all, sure this shot in particular is planned out and really close, and close shots like this always have crazy high detail but even the wide range shots look pretty good, I'm not showing those for privacy though, people once found out where someone was by a photo of a flag with nothing but the sky in the background, so there you go.
It should be pretty hard to tell with this one though.
I've been going back to my roots a lot recently, Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, and even this camera have all proven to give my mental a boost that it desperately needed, in all the weeks leading up to my recent changes I was no doubt depressed, I'm still thinking about going through with the channel move.
However if this new channel does not work out, everything will be re uploaded back onto this one, despite the fact that it'll be using different names and everything like that.
In the case that the other channel doesn't work out, I will likely keep the branding changes, so the name will be changed once again.
All this to say I've been doing much better lately, I don't know how to describe the journey that led up to this, just a few simple changes and I started to see things in a new lens, I don't care to share my overall thoughts because they haven't changed and would likely seem pessimistic to most.
At the moment I've just been trying to live like I don't have a brain, even though nothing's changed it's easier to live with now that my thoughts are elsewhere.
I'm a dreamer and I think my thoughts have been in reality for too long.
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I have tried all my life to avoid the glamorous path believing it to be in direct comtrast to humility but it's possible to have both, for years my ego and pride have been killed off by others to the point that I pretty much never have self esteem anymore.
However I think this is all wrong now, the reason everyone's been killing my ego isn't to help me or teach me, it's to stop me from being the best I can be and I know I have incredible potential, this isn't a subjective thing either, there are traits I have that a lot of people would be very interested in.
I think it's time to start whittling away at this overcorrection, I'll find confidence in myself, I'll believe myself to be the best because that's the mindset that'll get me somewhere in life, these changes aren't going to happen overnight of course but with dedication I think I can make something happen.
I'm not too young or too old yet, I'll make something work.
I'm gonna keep this vague for YT and to keep it a surprise but in other news yes I'm still fully committed to getting ready for the new channel.
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(I did say it was unlikely for me to post any long-winded topics but seeing as this will most likely be my last chance to do so, I will be making a final series of long posts, they might also be made into my final series of videos on this channel.)
As of today I want to make sure everyone knows the fate of this channel by changing the name, in the past such name changes have not meant much and I'll still be keeping the "OneBoredCatbug" handle but like I said in a previous post I no longer want any connection to this channel and I'm gonna be off-loading some personal stuff while I still can.
SweetLittleDreams- the new name rings melancholic doesn't it? Well I'm leaving the past behind, might as well dump off some last personal stories here although I'll obviously avoid certain details, who knows I might make some last videos about these because this is where my personal life ends, all that I will be going forward is business.
If I make any last videos they will be as raw as possible with only essential edits, this was created to be a personal channel with no goals in mind, so this is my last chance to speak on my life, the next channel I create will be all business going forwards, it'll still be me but without the stuff that new viewers and outsiders wouldn't care about.
Back when I started and could barely bring myself to speak I suffered anxiety, back then I just wanted everything about myself to be private but couldn't avoid trying to get things off of my chest, I didn't have the self-control or the mental health to pull it off so it always slipped through the cracks.
How am I today? Truthfully I am probably worse off than I was back then but I've gotten a lot better at hiding it, I've thrown away many of my fears and concerns in exchange for an inescapable existentialism.
I only feel alive when I treasure what is tangible and exists around me, it's materialism, it's a harsh contrast to who I am and what I actually believe but if I embodied that would I be here writing this? Would I have been here 5 years ago when I first made this channel?
Even though materialism certainly helps me live it is not an escape, the thoughts come back eventually, I have long accepted that whatever happens next is gonna happen.
Living makes me feel empty, not knowing what death is gives me no reason to pursue it, no matter what I don't feel better or worse about anything, there are things that make me feel again, and it's all genuine feelings.
It's just that even as I was writing that I was thinking "but it doesn't matter", and I just can't help thinking that way.
This post is getting a little long so I'm gonna leave it there for now.
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This channel is now retired, you may still see me in comment sections and posts but all other activity is now ceased.
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Neutral good AKA: a boring creature AKA: me.
Amateur artist, video editor, I don't do much else.
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