Hey, I'm unlisting most all of my past videos but I'm leaving them hidden in a little playlist. If anyone's ever looking to do historian shit on me this might be helpful in telling that little exposition part of the video before you get to why I'm being cancelled so here you gooooo
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Name Change??????
Tomorrow this goes live. I've been planning this for a year this is actually making me really anxious 😅
The things is, I know very few people are going to be able to attend the live premiere. Honestly maybe no one, and I already decided to keep the chat up for this one even if it's just me there so the total lack of people caring is probably going to be immortalized there forever. I don't really know what to do though, I'm just stuck waiting and it's really stressful so I'm typing this lol.
No one really reads these either, but that actually helps me a bit I think. A sort of therapeutic shouting into the void. If that's not on theme for the album I don't know what is 😂.
I wrote the album over the course of 2022-early 2023 but I recorded the entire thing with a single microphone and a mix of Cakewalk and Audacity over the course of one month within the bounds of my grandma's house. On Jan. 1st I got kicked out of my house by my step dad, after bouncing around friends for a bit I moved in with my other dad who I fought with even more. This is around the time that I'm talking and texting with my new best friend, Makenzie (she's important later). When my family's dog was hit by a car it felt like my world was ending and that was made worse by my dad and I screaming at each other. We haven't really talked a lot since then. I don't think he ever liked me, if I'm honest I mostly remember him expressing how he wished I was different or how he hates how hard it is to be my dad.
I slept in my car for a few nights after that.
Makenzie found out and offered to let me stay at her house for a bit. We had already been talking for while, but we played this game she really likes called "we're not really strangers" and I think that's one of the first times I fell in love with her. A little bit later and I moved out into my grandma's house where I finished writing and then recorded my album before moving to New Jersey (which is a whole thing by itself but nevermind).
The thing is, I don't think I'd change any of this. In spite of all the pain and shit I'm me and I am here. I ended up with the absolute best friend ever (who also through some impossible feat of luck is now my GIRLFRIEND 😍) and I ended up with a pretty cool album too.
Thanks to all the people who got me here, I'm still homeless and sad but now I'm 14% more philosophical which gets so many bitches so really who's winning 😎
if you do read this and this void isn't as empty as I thought maybe go listen to the album and tell me what you think? Love ya ♥
so this is like, the new twitter right??
decided to go a different route to get around my writer's block and I'm taking the c̶o̶w̶a̶r̶d̶'̶s the tactical way out.
I'm scrapping weeks of work and most of it was in google docs that no one will ever read but I had this much actually "animated" so I wanted to at least put this much out as a sort of consolation prize for the unborn video that didn't make the cut.
Finished video coming out soon!
tons of people upload animated videos to youtube every day. surely it can't be THAT hard, right??
@kyronop and his army of alt accounts keep unsubscribing from me just to keep me hovering at 259 subscribers, perpetually edging me forever.
I fckin hate this man, best friend ever but I still wanna kill him you know?
In honor of this stupid video passing 300 views (the first real video of mine to do so), I wish to paint a picture of irony for you.
at the 0:49 mark in this video i make a joke wondering if I was "still a straight guy" considering the possibility of me accidentally dating a guy in minecraft.
I use a "bi panic" gif to really sell the joke which was probably in a little poor taste, but in a shocking turn of events a few months later I finally started coming out to my close friends and family as pansexual. Anti-mimesis and all that, right?
Sometimes I play piano and stuff
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/5kS6jjDtaamV7KpHJ6XdEz
Bandcamp: zachthehuman.bandcamp.com/
YouTube: you're literally there you don't need this you small silly bean.