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in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Made a new YT channel where I will mainly post Deadlock videos, I will keep posting Siege videos on this channel. If you want to sub to my 2nd channel here's the link : youtube.com/@beda28?sub_confirmation=1
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The main reason why I haven't been uploading/streaming much these past years is that I hate half-assing things. I can't get myself to do things that I know I won't be able to give my 100% focus and energy and that goes with pretty much any other aspect of my life. Anyway, with that said I miss making content and this feeling to grind streams/youtube content has been there and when the time's right I wanna start again and maybe do a fresh start who knows. I feel like I've abandoned my YouTube channel and the people who used to watch me and as weird as it sounds I like starting things at 0, it just makes me want to grind way more knowing there's a difficult path ahead. I was thinking of starting a new channel for other games like Deadlock for example (I'm addicted) and maybe keep my old one only for Siege if I ever wanna make Siege content. I'm not 100% sure about that but we'll see. Anyway, if you read all this and have been one of my viewers/subs thank you for everything, seriously. You guys changed my life and I never thought when I started off YouTube that I'd ever get 50+ mil views but you guys made it possible by supporting me from the start and I really do appreciate all of you.
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I finally made a discord server! Here's the link if you want to join it: discord.gg/VNRNbCS5WR
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What's up guys, just a quick update for you guys! First of all, I'm sorry that I haven't uploaded very much since this new season. The game is not in the best state right now and I haven't played a lot, so that's why. In the meantime, I just made a TikTok where I'll be posting shorter clips. Make sure to follow me if you want to see some stuff that might not make it to my YouTube videos in the future; tiktok.com/@realbedasaja
Have a good day! 👍
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Quick update about the channel that I Tweeted earlier :
Hey boiz, it's been a while since a last uploaded/streamed so I just want to make this quick and explain a little bit why I've been gone for the past month and a half. So lets start from the beginning (when I started YouTube 3 years ago). My first year on YouTube, I was basically uploading Siege daily at a point where it was unhealthy. I would sleep like 3-4 hours a night just to make sure I was uploading daily and at one point I just hit a wall. Because I hit that wall, I uploaded way less my 2nd year. I had some moments where I would upload a lot and some moments where I wouldn't upload for a long time but I tried to always upload as much as I could. This year (3rd year) there was a time that I did not upload for a while because of personal reasons and I got super depressed but I don't really want to go into details because I'm fine now and I already talked about that in the past. I also went to EU this summer so, again, I couldn't upload for a while. When I came back I uploaded for a bit and I took a break again. Why did I take a long break this time? Well let's just say that I played 20 games of ranked this season (not a huge fan of this season) and the wall that I hit after my first year on YouTube has been following me to this day. It's really hard for me to upload like I did at the start because like I said it's really unhealthy and I don't want to hit this wall again. Also, I really don't want to put content that I don't enjoy. So let's just say that if I don't enjoy Siege, there is now way I would upload a video. I don't want to fake being super happy when I'm not, it's just not who I am. When I put a video it's because I enjoyed playing and what you see in the videos I put out, well, it's the real me and it's the 'me' who enjoys what I'm playing. There's also been a huge issue about cheaters recently and to be honest it just puts me in a bad mood when I play against cheaters (it happens a lot btw) and it's just not fun so I've been staying away from ranked. With that said, I'm not gone forever because I don't want to stop making videos. Matter of fact, I just edited a video with some clips that I had left from this season. To conclude this long post, I don't want to say that I will start grinding again because every time I've said that, it didn't really work out and I don't want to give you false hopes anymore. One thing I would like in the future is to try and make more videos about other games because I play a lot more games than Siege. One game that I've been wanting to make content is Rust. I think it's a really enjoyable game and it's also really fun to watch in my opinion. Anyway, sorry for writing a book but I just wanted to be honest with you guys. My new vid should be out tomorrow btw.
Stay safe <3
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Yoooo! I posted something important on Twitter yesterday and I'll just put it here for you guys since it's great news :) Love u all!
First of all, thank you again to everyone who supported me these last months. I know I didn't upload a lot and I'm sorry. Some stuff happened these past months and it wasn't easy and I pretty much lost all the motivation that I had. I tried to come back like 2-3 times but I wasn't ready I guess. What happened sucks but I feel so much better now. I tried to be really honest with you guys while I was gone and I hope you understand why I didn't upload a lot. I wouldn't be here without any of you and your constant support. Without you, my whole channel wouldn't even exist. All of you made this channel possible and you all changed my life and I thank you so much for that. I've grown so much since I started YouTube and I'm so glad I started my channel 2 years ago. These past months made me stronger and I'm ready to grind even more than I did in the past. If you're reading this and you're in the situation that I've been, I want you to know that you'll be stronger at the end of whatever you're going through. It might seem hard and you might think you'll never go out of what you are going through but you will trust me :) Talk to you friends and try to keep yourself occupied and you'll see how much it helps! We back boiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz and I will stream again tomorrow btw (twitch.tv/bedasaja28) Only way to go is forward from now on!
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Hey everyone, I'm sorry that I haven't been uploading a lot in the past months. I tried my best in December but I still feel like it wasn't enough and I could have done more. I know I did a post like this like 1-2 months ago but I thought my situation was getting better but looks like it's not. It has nothing to do with YouTube, I've just been going trough hard stuff in my life and just know that I'm doing my best to take care of my personal stuff and YouTube at the same time. I wouldn't be here without any of you guys so I'll still work as hard as I can to make videos while I go through this. It's really important for me to be honest with you guys and I hope you'll understand. Hope you all had great Christmas and I want to wish all of you a happy new year.
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Hey, I'm writing this post to let you know that I will be away for a while. I need to take care of myself and I can't keep going like that. I hope you guys will understand and I promise you that when I comeback, I'll comeback stronger. <3 you all.
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