Extremely bland text post incoming. (no, Subway Surfers will not be provided)
I'm moving back in to my mom's basement (what a surprise for a War Thunder player). I currently live in an ADU on my dad and step-moms property, which is mixed rented/work trade/house sitting trade/good will.
To cut to the point, I have never considered my step-mom as a part of my family, let alone as a motherly figure. She is a horrible person; manipulative, psychologically abusive, emotionally unstable, invasive, passive aggressive, the works. But, since she's legally part of my family, I've tried to pretend like everything is OK, and maintain happy relationships.
Spoiler: Everything is not OK.
So, I'm moving out, from a very lovely ADU tiny home, with a studio built by all hands on this property, and friends - into an unfinished basement room that I can't stand up fully in (I'm 6'2 and height of the space is 6'-6'5ish), with an uneven warped concrete floor. Because I'm done being around my step-mom. She has sapped so much happiness out of my entire family, and my siblings and I's childhood, that I'm done with clawing to stay on her good side. To keep it brief and paint a simple picture, I avoid any interaction with her if possible, because I would rather she not be reminded that I exist.
With all that said, I just have no drive right now to make any content. I can't promise any kind of timeline for a return to content, but I can at the very minimum say that I have no intention of completely abandoning this channel.
Anyways, much love everyone. And fight back against the people that leave you feeling trapped and belittled. No one deserves to live like that.
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Another fun channel update post 🤓
All of the setup work I've been doing has paid off so far. Audio issues are fixed, and the gaming and streaming PC are perfectly meshed together. I can record in multi-channels of audio to fix clicks and pops in post, etc. Everything is perfect.
Enter 2 days ago when I finally set all this up, and did a private stream to test it all out.
Internet issues.
I legitimately am unable to stream at this time. A technician from my ISP is coming out tomorrow at noon to take a look.
I don't want this channel to die, and I'm still fighting hard for it. We'll see what tomorrow brings! If I hadn't run into internet issues randomly then I'd be streaming right now probably.
Some of you will say, "But, you could still be recording right? Posting videos even though you can't stream?". And that's totally valid, I think about that too. Right now I still just can't commit to that, with issues still looming over my setup. Just no peace of mind. I'm sure some of you will understand.
Much love ya'll. Thank you for the support in the mean time.
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Hey everybody, how ya doing?
I'm going to be straight up with y'all right now. I'm struggling. And I hate asking for help, but I need it. If you enjoy my content, and want to help me (even just replying with some kind words would be sweet) then read on:
I haven't been streaming or upload as much as I want to recently. This is due to a cascade of difficult and complex technical issues and setbacks with my system. However, this hasn't just come out of nowhere like a virus. I've been upgrading my setup to provide a higher quality experience to you (the viewers) and myself as a creator. And I'm a bit of a perfectionist.
Long story short, I have a problem with ground loop interference (this currently prevents me from creating content by plaguing my audio on all devices with intense noise and buzzing). I have tried almost every configuration imaginable to solve the issue. I'm left with the only option being to throw money at the problem, and I'm running out of it, due to not being able to produce as much content as I intended to the last few months. (I also had an internet problem, which I solved late last month).
((If you wish to discuss the minute technical details of how I have my gear setup and connected, find me on Discord discord.gg/berryfarm, troubleshooting help will also be greatly appreciated))
The friction caused by this issue has led me into a slight manic depressive state, if I'm being honest. I know everything will be okay, and it will all be solved eventually, but I'm spending too much, and making to little at this time, for me to maintain a calm state of mind.
I hate asking for help. If you are able to, and wish to help alleviate some of this stress, so I can focus on getting back to full capability: Consider donating, becoming a member, etc. As always though, even just continuing to watch and recommend my content helps massively.
Channel on my Discord with support links: discord.com/channels/1021098614447165653/116616418…
If you would like to donate a larger amount, and not have a % of the donation go towards YT or Discord, etc, we can work something out through PayPal.
Find me on Discord if you would like to discuss support.
Much love ladies and gents, thanks for watching ❤️🙏
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Hey, just a small update. Most of you are probably expecting me to be releasing videos on the new vehicles from the update, which I do WANT to do.
However I'm really struggling (in a variety of ways) to sit down and record footage and feel confident in what I'm doing.
With that in mind, gonna take a brief break from trying super hard to record, and chill out, play some other games, maybe stream, not sure.
I don't really feel FOMO about not uploading any content per se, since there's buzz around the update and all that. However it's still been super stressful for me and I just can't handle it right now. Just how it is.
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Hey, so Gaijin was kind of quiet about posting this. This is their reasoning and explanation behind the nonsensical foldering/grouping of vehicles coming with the next update:
forum.warthunder.com/t/following-the-roadmap-respo…
Please go in there and leave some feedback so they can get their head out of their booty.
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Hey. First thing, huge thank you to everyone tuning in to the streams. Also the support from during such streams has been WILD and it's a huge help to me.
Second is that I will most likely be taking sponsors onto some videos that I release. It's just something that needs to be done, there's no way around it that I can see.
I'll try not to do cringe ads and just know that I'm not selling out to anybody, just providing advertisement of any given product/game to the exact specification of the agency in order to receive payment. I also plan to place the ads in such a way that my existing video chapters will show the end of the ad so they can be easily skipped.
Anyways yeah, streaming is fun and I'll get back to videos eventually. My internet is still shit and I'm exploring options to move again so I can actually have a stable connection.
MUCH LOVE BYE
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Just incase you missed the stream or don't know that I've been doing so, here's 7 hours of decently watchable content. Couple of nukes in there as well.
Will get back to regular videos eventually, just taking a break and doing some chill streams.
watch video on watch page
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Hey y'all. My upload frequency will be slowing down for the next few weeks.
I'm trying to improve my internet situation so I can stream and upload videos without crippling my network, which currently involves either leasing/renting a small office or moving entirely. Still working on the whole thing.
I'm not gone or leaving, just trying to improve my situation and shake the curse of bad internet that I've been living with for so long, because I really want to commit to YouTube.
Additionally, I'm not one to beg for money, but I will start needing a more steady income stream with all of these changes. The best thing the average enjoyer of my content can do to support me is to just watch my videos fully and with ads on, or with a YT Premium account.
But also I know many other creators do things with Patreon and other platforms like that. I would set one up but honestly, I have no intention of providing additional gated content (at this time at least), so any support options through such a site would provide little to no benefit back to you. Other than my undying gratitude, of course 🤣
If that sounds like an option some of you would find acceptable then I might set one up.
Anyways yeah, that's the update.
Also for a cheeky sneak peek of the 10-part lineup review series (per nation), here's the master sheets for each nation (still work in progress, may be small errors or bad vehicle choice, feedback is appreciated): imgur.com/a/rb9AiI6
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It's me, John Skill Issue.
Joined 28 March 2021