Views : 331,610
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Oct 18, 2023 ^^
Rating : 4.993 (4/2,210 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2024-05-06T02:52:26.000241Z
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Now that the lyrics make sense, I put myself in this song. I suffered a miscarriage on January 24th of this year and it was the worst thing ever... The whole pregnancy I was frustrated from always feeling ill, also suffering from mental health issues, I was going through financial troubles and facing homelessness. On nights when I was vulnerable I would argue with my husband that I didn't want my baby due to me not being able to give him what he needed. I wanted to feel better. Til one day I started bleeding.. at that moment I felt so much fear. I didn't realize how much I wanted my baby until the realization that he may not survive. That first night, I sang out loud to myself a lullaby and apologized to my baby while rubbing my belly in hopes my baby would forgive me as they feel everything we feel. Ended up in the hospital on 3 occasions to see he was fine via ultrasound but I was still bleeding heavily. Was on bed rest and one morning I woke up with immense pain. My husband called an ambulance and when I reached the hospital, my blood pressure was through the roof that they gave me morphine. Pain did not go away and I was praying and hoping everything would be okay. But an hour later I went to use the bathroom and out he came. Perfectly formed floating in the amniotic sac attached to my placenta. I don't think I screamed so loud before. I felt so empty. I feel so guilty for the negative feelings I felt at that time and now this song triggers me emotionally. To my 9 week old son Azariah, mommy and daddy miss you every day. I'm so sorry 😔💔 you're all I ever wanted and it took losing you to realize you were exactly what I needed.
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I couldn’t imagine going through with an abortion when wanting to have the baby. That pain would be unbearable. I cried listening to this now as if it was the first time I heard it, and in a sense it was. I heard it from a different perspective and with a different meaning.
It’s crazy I grew up in the 90s thinking Britney was so lucky… now I feel like the lucky one.
I hope you find peace one day, Britney. 👼🏻
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@henryfly2984
6 months ago
This song makes clear sense now. The fact that she had to endure so much pain in secret, while receiving additional abuse and shame from the man who “loved” her, her family, and the entire public. You never deserved to suffer this way, Britney. You deserve the most freedom and love and happiness for the rest of your life. I’m sorry you had to hold this dark pain in for so long. I’m so glad you got to write your truth. I’ll be reading.
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