@imru1ing667

11 months ago

This song makes me think of my childhood friend who recently passed in November. I’m only a freshman in high school but I’ve known her since first grade, and I was the first person there when she died. She was hit by a car… leaving my house. She left her hoodie and wouldn’t pick up the phone so I biked to her house only to find blood strewn across the street and her laying facedown 20 feet from the crosswalk. I will never forget the feeling of not feeling. The shock, the numbness, the disbelief. Having to call her mom after calling 911 is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Watching them pick her blood covered face over the concrete… seeing what her brain looked like, sitting with her as she bled out in her last moments. On top of all this, my sister was born on the same day as her funeral, and I had to pick. I went to her funeral and went to the hospital, but the looming sadness my mom had of not having me there when my little sister was born after raising me as a single mom for 12 years, getting married, and having another child. The hardest two weeks I’ve ever experienced. Shout out to all those who use music to heal, I understand. R.I.P Haven Williams. Gone but not forgotten, July 31, 2009-November 20, 2022

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