@jjay0307

1 year ago

yeah been there also, I mostly had my panic attacks and anxiety attacks when my granny passed away, then my other gran passed away, she was my favourite person on this planet and I watched as she left this earth, it traumatised me, to the point I couldn't barley function, I had ptsd for sure, I remember coming to your show in 2018, and I got so over whelmed, I started to have a panic attack during your show, I was right at the front, and I just wanted to run out! sweating everywhere, but I stayed and thought, no, your not ruining this for me anxiety, and I stuck it out till it passed, I'm glad I did, that night you came right upto me, stood where I was, and turned to me and said are you alright, you didn't know what had happened, but I felt like wow, maybe he's psychically felt what was going on with me, and it cheered me up, to the point the anxiety just went away, you helped me that day, and didn't even know it, just you turning to me and saying you alright just took all that bad feeling I had away, it is totally bizarre, but I have you on video and I remembered it, but I started to see signs when my granny's passed away, a song would randomly play, I mean my gran give me lots of signs she was ok, it was too much of a coincidence the things that happened after she passed to not believe in something more, I don't think we will go to heaven, or a anything like that, but I get days i feel them with me, can't see them, but I will get a rush of their smell, it's just a feeling, but yeah you are definitely 100% not alone with how you feel, I had to take diazapam also, but they only give people it for a short time, now I'm on a constant one, don't like it much, as it has caused weight gain, but it does it's job, but I do want off it, as it's side effects, the sweats, the overwhelming heat, the weight gain, it's not worth it, sorry for the long message, I tent to write and not stop, haha, but yeah, been through the same, depression is bad, but the anxiety, nothing stops that when it triggers and it is a horrible feeling and I've found ways to cope with it and deal with it when it happens, and realise I ain't dying, it will pass soon, it's the after effects that's terrible, I should really channel my emotions into song writing, I get songs in my head and never write them down, maybe I should. I hope your in a better place now, just know your fans are cheering you on, we always have your back and you have our full support in all you do, sending much love x

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