Hey guys I know it’s been a while since I touched based with everyone. #CancerForChristmas is on the way, I’ve just been delayed because this last round of Chemo was really hard on me.

Im getting neurotoxicity which is when the chemo goes to my brain and messes with my thoughts and reality causing hallucinations and extreme anxiety which was overall really overtaking me for a while.

But the the week following chemo was one of the best weeks I have honestly had in years. I’ve been working on my best music ever, for all the right reasons, for me. Not to impress anyone, just because I’m really enjoying it, which for the longest was impossible. I hated everything. But I love what I’m making now. Also I know this might sound weird, but my voice is changing and getting better and I think it has something to do with the chemo. It would be a strange twist of fate if one of my biggest insecurities, my voice, was fixed somehow as a symptom of one of the most toxic treatments to one of the world’s worst diseases. Fate is weird.

Everyday is a war. But a lot of days are really beautiful. It all depends on your perspective, and I wish I saw that a lot longer ago and wish it didn’t take cancer to trigger realizing it.

This chemo routine i’ll keep repeating, but I’ll find all the happiness imbetween. Life is really great when you appreciate it i guess.

California is beautiful right now, and I’ve been a big california hater for a long time but recently it has been beautiful and green and magical honestly since the rains. Timing couldn’t have been better for me as I’ve been traveling up and down the coast between where I’m staying and for treatment. I really have gotten to see the state blossom through this weather.

I hope you guys are all good. Keep writing, it keeps me going.

And #CancerForChristmas 🎄🤡 is almost her