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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Oct 10, 2019 ^^
Rating : 4.982 (4,211/911,824 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2022-04-09T21:52:47.238255Z
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I first saw this video during my miserable time doing electronic engineering at university. I was depressed, with no friends, a flat full of people I couldn't truly connect with, missing lectures, struggling to keep up with my workload, and wondering how I would ever even manage to complete university. The only thing I'd manage to do regularly was attend the anime society which I enjoyed but thoroughly felt like I didn't fit in. I was at my all time lowest, but when I saw this music video is was good enough to raise my mood and stick in my head on loop for a short while. The small boost in mood during the good moments of anime soc were enough to convince me that this uni was absolutely the wrong place for me, my default mood shouldn't be misery.
Now here I am, in the process of one final 36-hour mad dash to finish my 3rd year dissertation doing Geology at a different uni - a place I never even imagined I would be when I first heard this song. I'm still battling the same neurotic perfectionism that marred my time at that uni, but I'm getting better at it. My whole life I'd simply taken the academic path since I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I had no raison d'etre but now I'm on the precipice of seeing that path through and truly starting the next chapter of my life. In that time I've done things I never thought I could do, I dropped out of uni and survived just fine, found a course I enjoyed and could actually do, made friends in an unfamiliar city, made true friends in an unfamiliar city, lost my closest friendship and mourned it, forgot my closest friendship and didn't mourn it, survived first year, survived second year, and am surviving 3rd year just about. I'm getting by better than I ever imagined I could and while it's stressful in this very moment, it's a wonderful feeling. Just about the only thing I never managed to do was get a girlfriend, but I did at least meet a girl who was interested for the first time which is a nice first step. Once I free myself of the machinery of education I think I'll finally be able to believe in myself. The worst case scenario at this point is that I get a 2:2 accept it and move on with my life, but if I get a 2:1 I can be proud of my achievements and finally have a true reward for my two decades of endless, ceaseless strain. The future is bright. I can look forward to the rest of my life now.
This song will always carry this period my life with me, I thank Eve for comissioning such a great video for one of their many great songs. And I hope the next periods of my life will be punctuated by many more :)
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歌詞
漂うこの空気にストップ
ただ矛盾を抱いている
今更猛スピードでスタート切ったって
どうやったって追いつきゃしないぜメーデー
強がりに嫌気がさしている
弱音も吐けないままでいる
弱音も吐けないままでいる
損得のものさしでぽいって捨てられ
よそいきの顔してまたやり過ごす
存在もないようなもんだ
誰もわかっちゃいないや
感情論に縋ってなんて憚れば堕ちる
だけど 夢に目覚めた君は何をみるの
最低な日を超えて 最善の成る方へ
どうしたんだ
期待なんてもうしてられないから
その時をじっと待っている
曖昧な視界に立って 際限のない方へ
こんな気持ちさえも捨てきれないのなら
混ざって混ざって生まれ変わるまで
終わらない夢を
従わないことでしか
忌(い)み嫌われることでしか
焦りだけでは満たされない
ありのままなど見せたくはないね
ヘラヘラと今日も笑っている
弱音も吐けないままでいる
弱音も吐けないままでいる
詭弁に振る舞う 自己暗示さえ
真実に拘る 必要もない
裏切ってしまいそうな今日が
かける言葉もないな
金輪際もう一生なんて憚れば堕ちる
だけど
答えなど待っても君に会えやしないと
相対 武器をとって 感情の鳴る方へ
こんな気持ちさえも捨てきれないのなら
混ざって混ざって生まれ変わるまで
終わらない夢を
足りないものばかりの僕ら
外見だけ取り繕った
続かないことに苛立った
他人を見下し嗤ったんだ
そうしないと
もう僕の心は壊れてしまうから
本当はもうわかってるんだ
期待されない人生だ
根拠もないあの日のような
真っすぐな瞳は
だけど 夢に目覚めた君は何をみるの
最低な日を超えて 最善の成る方へ
どうしたんだ
期待なんてもうしてられないから
その時をじっと待っている
曖昧な視界に立って 際限のない方へ
こんな気持ちさえも捨てきれないのなら
混ざって混ざって生まれ変わるまで
終わらない夢を
その先の君を
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I haven't ever translated the lyrics, but just looking at the video, this whole thing hits very close to home.
The way I see it, it's about a maladaptive daydreaming system. The protagonist wanders about the city, seemingly having no drive, until they slip into a daydream. Suddenly, they're faced with a conflict, and one that they can fight. They do, and it drives them to a painful, but most importantly emotional state. This is when they come back to fully focusing on reality, already being home, in their bed. They go throughout their day again, but this seems to break the emotionlessness a little. They're shocked by what happened. And, with enough wait, it happens again. But, this time, the threat's mask breaks. But, subconsciously, that mask had broken around the moment that, in the video, reality and daydream began to merge together. They're a person too, even in the protagonist's head. The protagonist probably doesn't understand how, but that's fine. They both exist on the same terms.
Maladaptive daydreaming is something that, for me, happened as a response to when I had no reason to live. At first, the default was conflict. It was just some mental default. But, as the people in my daydreams became close to me, they became my reason to live, more than just some conflict ever could've been.
So the title, to me, makes perfect sense.
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3:34ここがマジで好き
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ROMAJI:
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Imasara mou supiido de sutaato kittatte
Dou yattatte oitsukya shinai ze meedee
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Dou shitan da kitai nante mou shiterarenai kara
Sono toki wo jitto matteiru
Aimai na shikai ni tatte
Saigen no nai hou e
Konna kimochi sae mo sutekirenai no nara
Mazatte mazatte umarekawaru made
Owaranai yume wo
Sono saki no kimi wo
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