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Top Comments of this video!! :3
Is there other people than me that have been listening to this album non stop since it came out??!!đĽ
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after standing in a crowd of people, ALL singing along to this song, you dont feel so alone.
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"I dont wanna die , i just wanna get relief" This is one of those things that I totally experienced years ago.
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I think NF said it perfectly "I don't wanna die, I just want relief"
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âItâs another one of those real onesâ theyâre all real bro
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The thing about some people with lifelong depression and suicidal thoughts, is songs like this bring us comfort. We dont feel so alone, hearing someone else tell our feelings to us. We cant always put things into words, or explain why things are the way they are, and NF hit the spot with this song. Its beautiful to me in every way, and it is my go to "feel good" song. It helps release the built up emotions. And his phrase "I dont want wanna die, I just want to get relief"....that line tore through me. Beautifully done.
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This song, and his paralyzed track ,explains exactly how I feel to this day at the age of 20 ,but I mask it away and shoulder my family's needs first , I feel broken but refuse to give up due to being stubborn, there's so much more pain I could tell, I got a job recently tho so I guess that's a good thing..., I'ma try and stay strong as long as I can and try, the job helps me feel like I'm actually usefully for once. I'm fighting demons similar to juice wrld and xxx , and I wonder if I'll ever truly become free if the past that haunts me daily. I hope anybody else who's going through anything similar gets through this .
Keep fighting.
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â I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel alone.â
Robin Williams
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when i was 16 my mother woke me up in the middle of the night hugging me and telling me she had to leave and she walked out and i haven't seen her since.. im 21 now. get pretty emotional just typing about it but that event got me very lost emotionally cause my father was never there. so i filled the void will substance abuse, no need to explain on what.. hung out wrong side of town, wrong friends, friends ODing, getting shot on corners. 8 total. only just started therapy 4 months ago after a 8 month stay at a hospital after a suicide attempt.. video is pretty old so we'll who sees this lol.. But if you struggle with any kind of substance abuse for emotional issues and just needing an escape emotionally, if you just focus on getting better one step at a time, no matter how small and how far apart the steps are, steps are steps. just at least don't give up hope like i did and just try..
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loneliness, having the feeling of being worthless and hopeless, feeling like a failure, bullying or discrimination, addiction or substance abuse, doubts about your sexual or gender identity, long-term physical pain or illness, bereavement, including losing a loved one to suicide....
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For me the suicidal thoughts came from feeling like there wasnât anything left and nothing to gain when I sat there with no emotion not sad not crying not mad just empty, depression is projected as being sad more often than anything else but for me I wasnât sad I didnât cry I just felt nothing and then my mind went to âI donât wanna die because I will feel bad for my family thinking about what they did wrongâ and then it went to âwell I wonât have to worry about how they feel anymoreâ
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I lost my mom at 7 and lost my dad at 17. From 7-17, my dad physically and verbally abused me. For a while, my dadâs death was my freedom. Over time, I started to hate how I felt about his death. I would sit here and grieve my momâs death, but praise my dadâs death. I would have panic attacks and would hate myself for how I felt. I was alone and no one understood my situation. It caused a lot of dark thoughts in my brain, suicide being a main thought. However, I put my pain and my anger into painting and and listened to music, like NF, because it helped relieve the pain and the thoughts I had. Itâs been 5 years since my dad passed and 15 years since my mom passed. I still have dark thoughts and sadness inside of me, but I make sure to keep the thoughts of light and happiness because I deserve to be happy.
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Like NF says 'The mind is a powerful place and what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way'.
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My struggle started when I watched a close family member die at a very young age, I didn't understand what happened or why she was gone; I didn't know how to grief so I just ended up lost in myself; I became withdrawn and "weird", I struggled with bullying through my childhood and teenage years so I became more and withdrawn, at the age of 12 I was diagnosed as a schitzophrenic along with anxiety and depression; after I left high school I spent half a decade with my life stolen by mental illness and on sick pay, I was in a situation where I couldn't interact with people or even go outside so I lost all self esteem and self value, I'm passed that now but it's more of a numb feeling, I struggle to feel negative emotions and I can't feel the good ones so I don't feel alive anyway, just like i exist
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Honestly, suicidal thoughts, for me, was simply being tired and burnt out from fighting and trying to stay a float. Everyone has their breaking point and eventually give in. When I faced suicidal thoughts, I was running on empty; getting up every day and trying to do what I believed I should but still felt lost, empty, self hate, etc. but my struggle came from childhood abuse that I never got to let go of or heal from and believing it was MY fault, that something about me caused me to deserve the abuse i received, so self hate, depression. Etc. definitely plays a part wi to suicidal thoughts, especially when you donât have someone to help you carry your burdens. I grew up in a big family, but felt so alone.
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When you're depressed and in a low mood, talking kindly to yourself is extremely hard. You don't believe the nice things people tell you and you don't believe yourself. You're basically trapped
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I'm very late but I'd like to share my thoughts on 4:42 when he asks about why we have suicidal thoughts.
Suicidal thoughts don't come simply because you want them to, simply because you ask for it to happen, or because you're sad one random day for the first time. Most of the time suicidal thoughts emerge from a long line of being hurt continuously. Being hurt so many times could potentially push you to build walls around yourself, have major trust issues, not wanna let anyone in and never trust anyone enough to tell or show them anything. Depression of course plays a big part in the making of suicidal thoughts. After being hurt so many times, in my experience, a day where someone you love and cherish with all your being, possibly trusted more than you've ever trusted anyone, perhaps even at 90%-100% and would've done anything for suddenly LEAVES you and cuts you off completely, even after so many times of trying to keep them in your life it still doesn't work, suicidal thoughts can emerge. Wanting to cut yourself, hurt yourself will emerge. It won't just come out of nowhere because you wanted it to. It takes time and experiences of people leaving you and you possibly going through traumatic events, even rape and abuse.
If you've never had suicidal thoughts then consider yourself lucky. Because when you have those thoughts and you're in deep enough, there's almost absolutely nothing that can bring you back to reality. I certainly know that from experience. I'm the type of person to push away all the negative events in my life and try to cover them up and forget so I won't have to face them. But one random day I'll somehow think about that and feel heartache knowing what happened really packed a punch against my heart and my feelings. Suicide is never the answer, but most people can't stop the thoughts from just coming in, and I'm no exception to that fact. If you ever get hurt, do not hide it from anyone. If someone can help you and make you feel better, if you can talk to someone, take that chance. People who are hurt and depressed and suffering from the inside out most of the time are the ones who are goofy as hell, smile all the time, usually there for other people, and usually never like the topic flying to them. Don't make the same mistake I did and keep it all in. That'll eat at you and destroy you each time someone decides to hurt you, or you hurt yourself. Now that I've done everything I shouldn't have, such as keeping everything in an never talking about it and always taking on more problems on top of others while also dealing with depression and my overthinking self and the fact I have agoraphobia, I'm sad to say it but I became a liar. I'm used to lying to others even when I don't want or mean to. It's like a habit. I lie and say I'm fine and I'll make myself seem so serious when inside I'm dying. Help those who are going through something like this. Suicidal thoughts, depression, and anything else that is related to such are NOT a joke.
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This song is super on point. True depression is a hard and dangerous struggle. I've been struggling for a really long time. My kids are the only thing keeping my head above water. Moving on or getting over certain things in life is a lot easier said then done. Self hatred is a whole other issue. Because true self hatred makes it seems like your always fighting to find a reason to live rather then the other way around. Just my personal feeling of course. Constant screaming and crying on the inside so the world doesn't see you wears a person down. Love to all who is going through the struggle.
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Because people wanna attack your weaknesses. They know what hurts you the most but still will target that. I'm so happy that NF played this song at his concert, this song hits home
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@courtneyh9924
4 years ago
âI donât wanna die, I just wanna get reliefâ Someone finally put this feeling into words.
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