@avacadotoast5492

2 years ago

I really needed this thank you. I quit my job today because it was extremely toxic and draining physically and emotionally for me. But now I am feeling extremely anxious like I made a bad choice. I know for my own well being I needed to get out of that toxic environment but now I am scared that I will be a disappointment to the people around me. I took the first job i could find as I just graduated college. Which was a front desk worker at a hotel. Going into it I was not passionate about it at all. But every day at that job I did my absolute best no matter how rude customers were to me or how mean to me the staff was. Most of the staff were middle aged overweight women who would constantly skinny shame me and call me a "crazy health nut"... while the male staff make me feel uncomfortable all the time. Costumers would come to the desk and yell at me if their room wasn't cleaned by the maids and I would feel extremely anxious because I wanted to fix the problem but the best I could do was apologize and tell them that I will tell the staff to clean their room.. but the staff was lazy, negligent and so negative.. to everyone. It was really killing my soul. But now I'm scared about letting people down. I know that company doesn't really care about me but I still feel really guilty now... I know that I just need a break to meditate and focus on my own mental health and well being for a little bit.

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