@JessaWanders

3 years ago

He was one of my closest friend before we became high school sweethearts, everyone said we were the perfect couple. He went to a military college in the Philippines (PMA), it became a long distance relationship, we were together for almost 3 years. Not much communication because he could only use his phone for few hours only and only every Sunday (school rule for the full scholar students). As if the distance was not enough to make the relationship hard. We would argue back and forth due to trust issues, until one day, one of his classmates reported back to me that they went out to drink on a Sunday, my bf got drunk and his classmate said that he saw a woman went inside my bf's bedroom, and that girl he mentioned had always liked my bf even before. She even had the audacity to tell me that she will take care of my bf (for me daw). That bissshhhh.... I could not handle anymore issues. When I found out about that, I broke up with him, which was a month before I was moving to the United States. He denied everything, he said nothing happened and that he did not remember anything but I just could not trust him anymore after that, on top of the hard long distance relationship. He begged and cried, but I just could not go through with the relationship especially with what happened and the fact that I was leaving to a place so much farther from him. Few years after my big move, one of my ex's classmate admitted that nothing really happened that night between my ex bf and that girl. He said that my bf was actually asleep the whole time even though the woman was making a move on him but he was too drunk to even respond, he passed out and could not possibly have done anything with the girl. He was the perfect boyfriend but we were so young and immature. And it was something I couldn't handle at that time. No one has ever loved me more than him, he did everything for me but I threw away all that because of that false report. It's been 10 years since we broke up and that was also the last time I saw him, until now, I still wonder, what could have been? What if I forgave him? what if I trusted him more? What if I was more mature to handle things differently? Back then, we talked about getting married, naming our kids, growing old together, our promises that it would be me and him against the world...💔💔💔 I But now, he is already happy with someone else and all these questions I have will always linger as my what ifs.... Now I'm paying the price... I'm sorry, My One That Got Away.... 💔💔💔

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