@faridaashu5505

5 months ago

This video resonates with me and my journey. I had a two year break from everything where I spent it discovering, connecting, and building an actual relationship with myself. Those two years strengthened the feminine in me because I learnt to flow and trust the unknown and uncertain. The two years after that was about living in my feminine, and building and strengthening trust in my inner masculine. Those two years are the years I faced my family drama and dysfunction squarely. Set boundaries and said no to anything that didn't serve me. Firmly shut the door on it when they expelled me from the family. That expulsion came with so much drama that even the police was used to intimidate me. But I overcame it and emerged victorious. Just about a week after I'd finally settled into my new place, the man I'm with today came into my life. He's the exact replica of my inner masculine interms of strength, courage, resilience, tenacity, and intelligence. When I realised he was the one for me, I wasn't surprised. After all I'd been through with my family and what I'd learnt and become as a result, I knew the man for me had to have the capacity for the woman I've become. Now if I hadn't gone through all that healing, growth, and evolution, I know I wouldn't have had the capacity to create for him the emotional safety he needed to feel okay with connecting with his heart. My own trauma and wounding would've kept interfering with his. But Alhamdulillah that isn't the case. My ability to hold space for him because I don't need him emotionally for validation, created the space and safety for him to connect with his heart. To feel. To trust his emotions. To grow gradually okay with having and expressing them. To trust in love. It's been the most beautiful and empowering thing to experience about the love I have for him. Of course some degree of work had to go into him too that I've benefitted from. Being grounded in his masculinity and unapologetic about it. From the get go, he's never struggled with me expressing emotions and truth. He's always been open and receptive to them. I've never had reason to want to suppress speaking my truth for fear of triggering him. He gets angry and what not when I trigger him or say something that pisses him off. However, I have never had to hold back my feedback to him about him. I'm a direct and straightforward person, incapable of sugarcoating. I'm also pragmatic. That's always been an issue with past relationships. With him, it's why we've made progress and grown as we have. He receives it for what it is, and actually values it. This inturn has been the single most enabling thing that has grounded me in my truth, and fostered my blossoming. Peace be unto you.

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