@Caveatemptor144

9 months ago

So lovely and beautiful to hear her ❤️ 🙏🏻. In 2012, I experienced what I later found out was a violent and spontaneous kundalini explosion where I was plunged into a moat of complete silence and the vanishing of the mind and sense of “I”. My entire constructed world collapsed and I experienced life like a lighthouse for 7 years as my energy field poured out of me in different directions like Tesla’s pylon. I was being ravaged and had no sense of the body in that time when it was very dangerous to be outside. My primal survival instincts also vanished. I knew it was a finality somehow and surrendered to it - It was taking me - although, bizarrely, I also knew that ‘my time wasn’t up’. Life continued with international house moves, family upheavals etc., but “I” was not doing anything because “I” had disappeared. It was only a silent energetic movie, in fact. I saw a Zen Master and a Master Yogi when I was a very weakened state - both of whom embraced me and reassured me I was experiencing the Ultimate. But I felt I was being carried into an expression of Being that was beyond the constructed world of must and must nots into complete conscious oblivion. I was absolutely pure, boundless and free but still had huge family responsibilities. By 2020 my field had started to settle as a rarefied experiential familiarity had set in - in other words, the body/mind had accepted a new sense of refined being although it is very difficult to describe. I also have one foot here and the other one there and I often accidentally leave the body (because the body is not what it seems) and have to remind myself (again, it is awareness that is reminding) that the legs in front of me are mine. There is no longer a self-reflexive mechanism. My brain changed, my heart was full of explosive love which was indeed painful but these are all descriptions. What is left is a kind, benevolent and loving Beingness which is a fractal of the Supreme Beingness. Fortunately. I documented the dissolution because, of course, it is soon forgotten. They are just passing sensations. The person did dissolve and never returned. I think Manuela might have been told to move away from psychology because this experience is far beyond psychology and attempts to define it or figure out the familial history/subconscious meanings would tarnish the Divine and psychology will entertain the mind to find answers. We ARE boundless and free. No answers required. The scaffolding in front of us and all around in a structured society is man-made. It is thus in every sense mental. When I had eye surgery in 2017, my surgeon was very surprised I refused Valium for anxiety (under local anaesthesia). I told him I would use the yogic breath on the operating table and I did. A few years later he told me he had taken up meditation after performing my operation because he was so astonished to witness that. But I had no fear only love - for his skill, for the gift of an expensive lens-replacement with top technology, for that moment. Thank you for this wonderful interview this morning. 🙏🏻

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