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Top Comments of this video!! :3
I wasn't an influencer but I had a micro following on YT while growing up as a teen, during the time when barely anyone was making YT videos. I loved creating content & being connected to other small growing channels & collaborating, it was like every moment my dreams from childhood were coming true even with a small community, I had fanart made of me, it gave me confidence to do things I wouldn't normally do without a camera, and I enjoyed entertaining people and was deadset on it becoming my job one way or another - one time a kid came up to my wide open window and asked if I made videos and that he recognised me. Then I effectively had a stalking situation I couldn't get out of, because someone from my own school would follow me around threatening me with insults while begging to make more of the videos that he wanted to see. I ended up dating someone who had a parasocial relationship with me.. And then a friend I made confessed that they started wanting to be my friend through seeing my content and thinking that if they could hang out with me maybe they'd be as happy as I appeared in these videos (I was borderline depressed & I wondered how many people really thought that the character I portrayed was 'me'), and it genuinely stung to realise if I continued, these aspects I already felt affected by of being a content creator could only exaggerate. I ended up with this weird trauma that I feel like I can't talk about with anyone in my life because it doesn't sound so terrible to them, a fear of accidentally becoming famous in the digitalised age. It feels extra absurd because creating is my life-force but I don't want to re-live these experiences. Thanks for making this video!
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I came across you by chance but had to sub because youāre such a genuine soul. I can relate to a lot of what you said in the video. Iāve personally dealt a lot with bullying, abandonment, homophobia, and racism in my childhood because unlike you, I wasnāt always uplifted by the world around me. I had a rough past that I desperately wanted to separate myself from. I wanted to be someone like you, because everything just seemed to come so easy to those who are privileged, and so I devoted a lot of time and effort into being super attractive and charming. It was only then when the world seemed to care so much more about me, constantly validate me online, and treat me better than I ever had experienced before, but it also came at a cost of what I valued.
My self worth became attached to my looks and how others felt about me, more so than all the things I love about myself as a person. Iāve been dealing with depression and anxiety from unresolved traumas in my past, and as a result Iāve been losing a lot of weight, and look tired from chronic insomnia. The sad thing is that I cared more about how this has been affecting my appearance than my wellbeing because Iāve been so afraid of being treated like Iām worthless again. Like you, I had to delete all my social media to focus on my healing because it was all just too much pressure. Thank you for being so honest about your experiences š
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This is the kind of 'content' that should go viral! So many valid and true points made. Good for you for breaking free of it and using the apps for something positive. You should do lectures in colleges etc!
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Itās always so cathartic watching your videos :) This one and the latest one about fame really resonated deeply with me. As someone who had trauma and insecurities, wanting to escape that and be loved and adored by people on the other side of the world from me was a big goal that I would regularly daydream about, and still kinda has been for the past 6 years since I started struggling from mental health issues, that are quite common for teens nowadays. This is very much a cautionary tale to me, so thank you for sharing your experience <3 I also love being the whimsical chill guy that everyone can have a laugh with - what Iām trying to face now though is the realisation that my personality can only really be this caricature and facade that Iāve built around myself for people who I even trust. And itās like I want to be him all the time, but canāt find the time and love to give to those loneliest saddest parts of myself because everyone I know and meet just wants me to be happy. And as a gay guy too, omg the men donāt even want to know the ābest sideā of my personality, itās really all just about vanity for them, and yes it feels like woe me but I have a lot more to offer than my face. But getting attention is even rare because Iām too āintimidatingā and also weird apparently lol. Itās just all so shallow in the gay community, and thatās why I havenāt found many good gay friends at all who just want to be platonic, and go into the deeper things in life :/ But ALAS! Wonderful video yet again, this is one of the first times Iāve commented on your channel :) Excited to see more!!!
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Man, I really appreciate your honesty. And also, the authenticity. As you said, most people will just go for more and more when they're in a bad situation, hoping it will make it good at some point. Your videos are truly inspirational and I'm really grateful for them and their high quality in value. Recently it just quite often happens that topics in your videos mirror similar experiences I'm going through. You had some really good pieces of advice that I will take with me.
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This is not the type of content that I usually watch but for some reason it really resonated with me even though I'm not an influencer. You seem like a very genuine and kind hearted soul. Keep following the path that's most true to you, you're an inspiration!
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This is brilliant commentary. The pretty privilege discussion is so smart. Youāre right, itās not like āoh pretty people are the real victimsāā¦ haha NO. But youāre so right about the degradation of everything being about looks & how that ultimately brings even more emptiness.
I have tween aged kids and Iām saving this video for when they inevitably have this struggle online. You really speak SO much truth here.
You have so much to offer as a person and Iām really thankful youāre sharing your experiences here. Itās really important for the younger generation to hear from someone like you. I donāt feel old, but according to my kids I grew up with dinosaurs so sometimes what I say doesnāt get through š
I hope you donāt delete this one!! Itās so impressive how you took that loneliness you experienced and really dove deep to figure that out within yourself. Itās so easy to just keep doing that same thing, keep thinking the success will bring happiness eventually, keep numbing yourself to your true feelings. You are super inspiring, and even for myself in my own career life. ā¤
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thank you so much for being this open
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This is important conversation
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bein a liddle ugly is gr8 bc all you have is your word your peace and your kindness.
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Yo bro i really like you and your energy and for all the people here i want to share something with you. I wanted to be famous all my life because my parents didnāt give me the appreciation that I wanted. I was searching for this attention and love in all the wrong places. I was going to clubs ,I was using drugs. The facade that I was keeping was like a really confident guy but inside I was like a little insecure child. So one day the devil came to me and gave me a deal to make me famous. Iām being for real. I always was a spiritual guy, but I believed in energy and not so much in the biblical stuff. So I accepted the deal but then my life became trash. I was having this nightmares and my life became so much more demonic that it was before and then Jesus came into my life. So I just want you to know guys that this void that we all have in us as humans can only be filled with the love of God. Iām not religious at all but itās about a personal relationship with our Creator. ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā”ļø
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Thank u for the insight šļøāØ
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Haha I don't say this to people cuz i understand that's not how friendships work, but we should be friends. I don't have enough deep people in my life and almost everything you say resonates with me a lot!
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What's your opinion on social media yet? Do you regret the thought of being some influencer?
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You used to be tumblr famous
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@Sagethis
3 months ago
Sorry I look so disillusioned in the video, I realized while filming that talking about this time is actually kinda traumatizing because of how negative those days were.:face-blue-wide-eyes: I originally wasn't even going to make a video about this, but i think its important for people who might want to be an influencer to know what its like. Hope you all enjoy:face-red-droopy-eyes:
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