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Sisyphus videos boutta make us feel something again
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I hope that someday when Iâm gone, someone somewhere picks my soul up off of these pages and thinks âI wouldâve love herâ
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"I devalue partners that value me". That hits home and it's so painful because you end up rejecting love and connection because you believe that you don't deserve it and that the person is stupid to treat you with respect and genuine love
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When I heard âif this person loves me then there must be something wrong with themâ it made me look back at the screen as I was doing something. It really struck me as my exact thoughts that I could never put into words until now of the relationships I get in
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Not being able to say "I love you", even to yourself, is a beautiful potrayal here.
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Man, your recent posts have really struck a chord with me, I have Borderline Personality disorder, your videos make me feel less lonely. know that somehow, you are helping someone even from across the globe, thank you and please, never stop.
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All of these feelings dissipated for me in high school when my psychology teacher said "people are too absorbed in themselves to care about you the way you do"
Which meant a lot of things to me... "hey, yeah..." I thought to myself "this also means that people don't care on my flaws like I do. I can make mistakes. People don't ignore me because they don't care. They're self-conscious. They're going through their own stuff." it made me feel a lot better. That frame of mind stuck with me since, for the better
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I broke down today. Because I remembered how horrible I felt from group therapy all those months back. I hated how, even there I felt invisible... and worse, unlovable.
Edit: Therapy helped, but only when I felt secure enough to discuss my issues. In group, everyone seemed to have "better" reasons for what happened. Call it self-centered, but I felt so bitter, that I couldn't get the support those people had immediately after they shared with the group.
I felt so angry. I still am. Its weird.
Therapy works, but it takes a bit to find a style that fits. Group was not my style my guy.
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For the longest time, I kept up this almost.. savior complex-esque act of valuing other people's needs, wants, and emotions over my own, because I truly believed, not only was my suffering comparatively unimportant on some corrupted mathematical level considering there will always be more people than me and, therefore, much more capacity for suffering in others than in me; I also truly believed that I'm an absolute monster that doesn't deserve love or kindness if I don't actively earn it by also giving it to anyone, regardless of if they, themselves, deserve it.
It's a mindset I've tried to move past; and, though I can't in honest sincerity say that I love myself, I think some internal part of me knows that, in order to feel like I deserve to be loved unconditionally, I'll need to learn to do so.
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Damn I watched this and found myself thinking about how I have done/felt the same way. The way we perceive ourselves is so strange because for me it is always dependent on my mood. Ill look in the mirror and either be frustrated that I look ugly or be shocked that I have always looked this good. I always have to remind myself whenever I feel down that it is just a feeling and that it will pass eventually even though you cant skip it.
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This reminds me of the story "No Longer Human" a prize winning Japanese story, claimed to be the most depressing literature of that country. I read the graphic novel by Junji Ito. It's basically a story about how a young man doesn't know who or what is is suppose to be, this causes the destruction of many lives and show what happens when one fails to define the "self". As someone who has decided to stop looking for a purpose in life and just experience what my life is (partly after hitting this channel), it comes to me there is no right or wrong way to live. We just do, leaning to much into this idea creates a sense of numbness to me, but it is more calming than the cycle of despair and happiness that made my world feel more extreme than it is. Simply be.
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This is exactly how I've felt all my life. It's feels odd to hear it articulated so well
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I used to be in this exact same position. This is something I understand all too well.
In short, the symptoms outlined in this video are a description of shame. The sense that for whatever reason we are not enough. However, is anyone born not enough? No, it's something we learn as we go through life, typically early on, maybe on the school playground or at family gatherings. Maybe others experience it later and never have faced and overcome it before, lack the tools equipped to know how to deal with the threat towards their identity of feeling not enough.
Ultimately feeling not enough is an illusion created within your mind. It's rooted in comparison to those around us. Do you ever feel not enough to a tree or a lion in the wild?
I am not good enough to be loved is a common one. I am not funny enough to crack a joke. Whatever it may be. It's all a symptom of shame.
So what's on the otherside of shame? How do we combat this asshole of a voice in our heads? Through cultivating empathy, compassion, gentleness and kindness. And also through reflection and challenging our thoughts. Learn to identify when you're putting yourself down and cut yourself some slack. Acknowledge that you may not be good enough at this thing you just failed yet, but in time you will improve and one day you will make it. Work hard and you'll get better. You owe it to yourself to do something great right? Something you can be proud of. It's your responsibility to give it everything you've got.
Sometimes it's hard, that's okay. In those moments we do what we can. In time, we will learn how to do better but for now, we will do our best. There are days that are just a write off. Screw it, and move on. Tomorrow's another day. Another opportunity. Nothing's waiting for us at the end of the day. Yet the world is full of ample opportunity. Why not explore what makes us laugh, what makes us smile? Try something new, even if it scares you. Do it scared. Why not? If it sucks, go to bed and try something else tomorrow. Eventually, you'll find something that sticks. Take your time, you have plenty of it. If not, that's okay too đ
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I don't know why but this video appears at the time that IS SO SO SO SO RIGHT FOR ME. I've been feeling a great deal amount of self-hatred and I've been learning French too! It's also crazy with the fact u put bits of Serge Gainsbourg and Jane Birkin's interview because not only I am a big fan of Gainsbourg, the interview itself talks about how Jane really loves Serge and how Serge sees himself as dĂŠtestable
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Treat yourself as you'd like to treat others. Could you love a flawed person? A deeply flawed person? If you could then that's a solid reason to not demand perfection from yourself. If you couldn't then... I mean I guess by your standards you are unlovable, can't really help you there (then again that would make literally nobody loveable, and there happens to be a lot of love in the world, so I'm sure you can figure that out.).
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It is too selfish to deem yourself such word as "unlovable". To love is a mixture of choice and feelings. Who are we to determine what other people, willingly or otherwise, feels towards us?
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I cant imagine the stories you can tell and create after an intense paychedelic trip
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Relatable. Feel unable to even put myself out there far enough for rejection to be an option due to feeling "if I feel this way about myself, why would anyone else want to spend time with me?"
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I have always felt like love wasn't even something i could ever have. Kinda like a cookie jar. Out of respect to the person who made the cookies, i never take them. Without realizing that maybe those cookies were made for me, and by not eating them... i actually hurt the one who made them.
Sometimes(actually most of the time), i feel like i dont even deserve what i want. That i will never get what i want because im too much mork, that im too broken to ever make anyone else happy when they try to love me, too much of a failure to actually satisfy the partner that might not even come in the first place.
I've only ever had one actual lover, and it was sadly forced online due to the pandemic. My partner had some family trouble and had to think back on themself, splitting us up. To have the one thing i wanted ripped away because of something out of control... really doesn't help the idea that im not loveable. On top of that, they wouldn't let me help them when they were in their time of most need, which is another twist of the knife. But that wasn't their fault, and i dont blame them. The only person i blame is me.
Sorry for the ted talk and wall of text, but i felt compelled to write my own experience after seeing everyone else's.
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@MrZAPPER1000
9 months ago
âI will love myself when Iâm perfectâ is so toxic because you will never be perfect. Not only is âtotal perfectionâ impossible but also âtotal loveâ. To know something is imperfect but to love it still is âtrue loveâ because it isnât so extreme or absolute. This is the love we have for the world and our families, and itâs the only way to love yourself.
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