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Producer:    / @gonzzox479  

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Playlist:    • Household Studio  

Lyrics:
I remember back in 9th grade, hadn't even been a freshman for more than 9 days, that's when you came to me September made me lose my own way I can recall breaking bones after I had a great fall, you got involved,

You introduced yourself to me talking about you wanting me, you were ready to fall for me, dumping your boyfriend honestly, it seemed too good but truthfully I was on the verge of a munity screaming sounds like a symphony couldn't get to sleep but what I could see

Was a busty model giving everything she got, even had the flags to warn me but I never had a thought, that this sexy bitch would turn out to be nothing but a thot I ignored all that and took her hand regardless of her plot,

I've never been a cheater but a homewrecker is likely, you were sitting on your phone with your man while we felt each other nightly, dated through 3 guys doing that began to hurt my psyche, already an alcoholic you made it worse cause you were like me, opposites attract for a reason but you and me were twins inside of a rusty four seasons, no rent to pay for a reason, wish I knew you were a demon, ready to make me a heathen wish I didnt stay on my knees and see you like you were a beacon

But you had me entranced, your thoughts were lies and implants, into my brain and enhanced, my need to keep up your trance thought I really had a chance you played with me without a plan, and hid all these manipulation tactics like mines in the sand,

Whenever we finally got together shit wasnt better, you were clever, and you always found a way to ruffle feathers, I had a false hope like a beggar when a businessman in leather, comes by flaunting all his cheddar, but he doesn't get a dollar you see,

This didnt even take a week, before I caught you cheating me, i should've known but I was weak I cucked myself literally, saw the hickeys below your cheeks, from your ex boyfriend and not from me and once you saw me you ran from me and yet somehow we stayed one piece

You know I went home that night and cut myself like 30 fucking times, and yet somehow, you still had me entwined I thought you were divine,

so even after everything you did to me,
I was still head over heels for you, I stuck by your side all the way through my 9th grade ride through school and dropped you by summer time, but you weren't far behind,

I didnt grow like I thought I did, and you tricked me like you always did, 10th grade did start without your shit, but yet somehow you snuck back in, thought we changed but man that's not it, back to our ways to the shots and the hits, suicide attempts, more scars on the wrist, and the physical abuse we made sure we never missed,

Giving you bulimia, and you would make me drink, cause I couldn't see a thing in ya and you just made me sink, any one of us stepped out of line abuse with another drink, our best memories are playing zombies instead of in the ring,

when we threw on nuketown zombies it was the only time we weren't getting drunk and screaming at each other until one of us was in tears from the pain we caused emotionally and physically.
God that's sad,

My god you were such a cunt,
Self absorbed a fucking sponge
My happiness went on the run,
You let it go man I was dumb,
Blue balled me you left it sprung
All my bells you kept em rung
I had to call or I was done,
Every day or face the gun,

Man this shit is hard to think about even as I'm in this booth, I was genuinely terrified to have her in my room, she tore me down and ripped me up I'm choking god what's this? A tooth, not that you would care what I looked like cause you were fucken through,

all my best friends, and their friends and your ex's, you tried to get on top of each one for some fair sex, headsets cause you blowing dick and it's been for reps, it took me 2 whole years to finally drop you I cant care less.

Our puzzle hit the ground and just,
Faded away into dust,
We tried to keep our piece we clutched,
But What's the point it's been so scuffed,
We had to go our separate ducts to ventilate and clear the dust,
Vacuum it up so to adjust,
Grow the fuck up and reconstruct,

Then maybe we could find ourselves again, avoid a bitter end, we were never meant to be together, made a toxic blend, we finally smartened up and both matured except let's not pretend, I thank her for the shit she put me through but it's time to transcend.