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my latest single is here!! pls stream it here - spoti.fi/3j9E98i or watch the music video! Ā Ā Ā ā¢Ā EmmaĀ BlackeryĀ -Ā WhatĀ HaveĀ YouĀ DoneĀ Fo...Ā Ā
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
I realised the other day that Iām coming up to 9 years of watching your content and it kinda terrified me but in a good way. I canāt really figure out how to put it into words, but you have a pretty big place in my heart and no matter what content you put out, Iāll always be following along quietly š
Like brand loyalty, but you knowā¦with emotions and shit.
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I post art online; drawing is my biggest hobby. I think "content" creation is like a double-edge sword: we are confident is our creations, but have an equal amount of doubt in our abilities. We humbly accept positive comments but suck up negativity or comparison to others like a sponge because it confirms our own thoughts and deepest insecurities of not being good enough. But I saw someone once say something like, while you are hyper-critical of your own works, others aren't. The example they gave was that if you go to a party with a cake and someone has already brought one, the reaction won't be "that cake is so much better" but rather "WOW! TWO CAKES!" and while it's silly lol, remembering that has helped me so much when falling into comparing my art to others.
Also: I like the new single!
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ā¤ļø It works both ways. Having a strong sense of self will help you take everything that's external with just a pinch of salt because you realise other people's pokes/assumptions is really just their own lack of sense of self. Once you go inward, nothing truly affects you in the same way again because self discovery feels like a drug in comparison to somebody's attempt to discover you. Those that are stable in what they are doing and who they are have no need to be anything but understanding for another human beings shot at life.
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In the last couple weeks I've learned that I'm going to be a father. I've also (no so coincidentally) started absolutely shitting myself in the last couple weeks.
Every thought, whether in a busy moment of a spare one is about how I'm inevitably going to fail as a father, regardless of whether I do my best.
So when we compare now to when I started watching your content, about 7-8ish years ago.
For better or for worse I've been glad to have you as a presence in my life, and to hear that at the rapidly oncoming threshold of 30 on the near horizon , it's heartening to know it''s not just me that's struggling with worrying about their best.
Much love.
I hope both get better a managing that inner voice.
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The encanto feeling. Know that motivation is a resource that needs time to recover. It may get low at times but after rest and reflection it tends to reach new peaks for your passions each time. We may only see snapshots of you, but these open talk videos show you care and have passion and thats what keeps a wholesome following. Keep doing you!
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For me you've been like my long lost twin sister (same age, similar personality, similar fatigue and mental issues), yet you've achieved my deep hidden dreams of music career and can find this bold self inside you to go out to the world to see (and maybe regret it after. quite often, I guess). It was very, very inspiring for all these years. And although I am still scared AF to even go near music instruments, I've achieved some sort of success in other fields, went through my own discoveries, became more in peace with my insecurities.
Keep going! Love ya ā¤
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Love you so much Emma xxā¤ļø Iāve loved your videos for years and constantly binge them when Iām having a duvet day
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It's gonna be weird when I say this but one of the reasons I enjoy your content so much is that it's so similar to what I've experienced. I'm 31, and the imposter syndrome is strong. The ups and down, the self criticism. The phase changes because of the warped self esteem. You deserve better. We deserve better.
"I became such a strange shape, such a strange shape from trying to fit in." Wilson, Fall Out Boy.
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Its good to see you showing this side again, it makes you real and its one of the reasons I've been following along with you for all these years now.
Self sabotage and insecurities is something I have dealt with as well, albeit in different ways.
One thing I have really struggled with in my life is thinking i'm doing something wrong when nothing is wrong. Then because I think that way, I inevitably make the false idea I had in my head come true. Which only proves my insecurities correct after they caused it to happen. Esentially making my fears come true because I stress over it too much.
When I first realised thats what I was doing, it was quite the light bulb moment.
Definitely hurts confidents like you mentioned, but knowing about it and being aware when you do it is the hard part.
I appreciate you sharing these types of videos with us though, and as a 28y/o now, it is good to know that we all don't need to have our lives together, because I don't at all haha
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9:32 as someone who was a ācontent creatorā on Instagram a while back, I really feel this. Looking back I realise I was painfully self conscious and constantly comparing the number of likes I got to fellow āinfluencersā in my niche, how many comments I got etc etc but because I was constantly posting these photos of myself and seeking validation, I would also get called out for being āself-obsessedā and ānarcissisticā which hurt even more because I was the POLAR OPPOSITE behind closed doors. I was posting things I didnāt even feel comfortable sharing because I knew it would get more likes and my brain had developed this entire dependence on it. It was the thing I checked every morning, every few hours, it was my life, for some reason.
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Totally feel you on looking for criticism, I was a vocalist in and out of bands from my tweens all the way up to the pandemic but I would always stagnate and pull away at the slightest bit of criticism that confirmed my pre-existing insecurities, wether it be about my screams, cleans the way I looked, whatever it didnāt matter. I was always looking to validate the feelings I already had, causing me to pull away and therefore become a useless band member outside of the studio/practice so Iād bounce, join a new group, say Iāll do it differently rinse and repeat. Pandemic hit right around other major issues in my life so Iāve been in a massive transitional period but Iāve found that the itty bits of progress Iāve made in learning to love myself has stopped the urge to validate my insecurities that little more, instead of looking at stuff that I know I canāt look at objectively, Iām focusing on the things I can, appreciating the good while working on the bad and in time I hope that that will allow me to objectively celebrate and work on the parts that I canāt assess now without falling into a pit of self loathing.
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glad you're gettin into the gaming scene again just for enjoyment! i really liked when you played papers, please all those years ago. probably one of my favorite playthroughs ever. love ya muchly
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Iām so glad youāre making steps forward!!! Iām doing CBT for my OCD and it helps SO MUCH! Also love your new songā„ļø
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I genuinely love these chatty videos. They feel like someone is recording me talking to myself while laying in bed, unable to sleep haha... But it's just super refreshing to see/hear raw, vulnerable, humanness on the internet. We all follow a lot of content creators... How much of that content doesn't feel genuine? I think that's what makes me like seeing creators learning things. It feels so much more human, relatable, and real. Thanks for the thoughts, Emma š¤
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ā¤ I have such self-loathing, especially with my 'art', I really appreciate when people talk about their experiences with self-doubt because it helps me feel less alone and less useless
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Fuuuuuck the criticism thing is relatable. I've always struggled with criticism and take it too personally, but your explanation for why you do makes sense for me too. I also have that shadow in the back of my head telling me all the things it wants me to believe that I am, so when someone else ends up validating that voice, it deeply bothers me. I'm glad I'm not alone in that experience
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I definitely feel what you are saying, insecurity is a cruel beast that can really tear into your own sense of self, because you are suppose to know who you are, what you like about yourself, what you have accomplished, how good you are, so when you see yourself agreeing with the negative voices, and those voices are echoed from actual people, that must be so hard for someone in the public eye, and it's hard when people constantly tell you that you are not good enough, that you need to do better, you need to do this and that, and maybe that's not what you want to do, maybe making videos on YouTube isn't what you want, maybe your music is what you want, but not everyone wants you to do that, so what do you do? You can't please everyone, and the most important person has to be you, that isn't selfish or arrogant, that's acknowledging that you are independent and someone's puppet to be controlled. I am glad you are doing what you want, and I hope you end up enjoying doing Twitch streams, and whatever else makes you happy. Depression and anxiety is something I struggle with every day, so seeing you talk about all this, it means a lot that you are wiling to share this so openly.
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I completely get where you're coming from. I know you have openly talked about mental illness previously. I personally suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder (and a few other things). Sadly, with this illness, we essentially live off of "stranger's approval". It's a lot of work to honestly believe in yourself, but I am proud of all of the work you have put in over the years. Much love xx
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I find the greater the success my channel has, the more the self doubt I have at times. I am an introvert and have never had a lot of friends at any given time, so that definitely makes my success on YouTube harder for me to understand.
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@TheMattShea
2 years ago
Putting yourself out there is difficult and I find once I lose momentum, it's much harder to get it going again. Just keep trying :D
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