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4 years ago

A friend of mine lost his wife due to a violent incident that ocurred in his house when he wasn't around. She was 7 weeks pregnant. After some time, he talked to me about a recurring dream he was having; near his old house was a wooden area where he carved their initials in a big old tree a few years ago. In his dream, his wife (with a very terrifying appearance) was trying to coax him to follow her through the wood, until arriving to the previous mentioned tree. There, she would stand in front of him, but her eyes and face were different; kind of like the eyes of "the exorcist's demon" -who later I would know as Pazuzu-. Her face was gaunt, gray and with dirt, all of this according to his own words. Then, she walked backwards into the tree as she was trying to draw him towards too. I remember he said how he could feel the drowning sensation as if you were hit in the chest by a car at 160 km/h. It was a haunting experience; both for him (who was reliving the moment while he was telling me) and for me (as I can still remember perfectly the moment after, when this song came up, that he told me that it was one of his favorites as a way to change the subject). He committed suicide 4 days later. That was the last time that I saw him alive. I usually skip this song because of this, even though I still add it in every single playlist that I make. Today, while I was preparing my breakfast, I was listening to one of those playlists when this song started playing. I couldn't change it because I was kneading dough. I started to feel a little uneasy but I did nothing. Now, after 2 years, I can't stop listening to it on loop.

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