@mf-te8xq

1 year ago

people talking about their ex-best friends reminded me of one of my own. we met in 2013, I was a bit nervous about kindergarten. she was the first one that ever talked to me there, and soon enough introduced me to the whole class. we were inseparable, and everyone knew that. our moms got to know each other and we started hanging out. I remember the first place we ever went to together, it was burger king. probably not the best place for a first playdate, but it was amazing. we were running around, playing, doing what normal children would do. after that, we all went to her house and played there till late at night. that was probably one of the best moments of our, or at least, my life. we went to the same school in 2014. we were an inseparable duo. we finished first grade together. and I remember once in second grade while we were walking around and talking, we saw two third graders fighting and shouting at each other, they were best friends... and they were fighting. it scared me. "Xyz" "yes?" she replied. I looked at her, nervously. "what if.. what if we grew up and started fighting more often..? and maybe stop being best friends and hate each other? I don't want to grow up.." I said. she chuckled. "no way. we're best friends remember? nothing will happen, don't worry." I was a bit worried, but brushed it off eventually. we finished second grade, together. in third grade, something happened. it was the last few weeks of it I think. I said something that made my best friend cry. (she was a bit sensitive at that time.) and everyone got mad at me. I was furious, maybe a bit sad even. I always got shouted at by the students if I made her cry unintentionally. until a girl came up to me. she started saying things like "Xyz the crybaby, she always gets you in trouble by being the crybaby she is, why don't you just ignore her? shes no good, and a huge brat" etc. (not the exact words she said but something like that) and I was dumb enough to believe her, and started ignoring my best friend whenever she came up to talk to me, and as soon as she realized that I was ignoring her, she cried and sobbed. it got to the point that even the teacher was involved. but that girl was stuck to my side filling my head up with illusions. yet, a while after that we made up, and our friendship was as strong as it was before. until we reached fourth grade, that's when everything changed. we weren't in the same class anymore, no matter how much we tried to get the school to put us in the same class, they refused. but it was okay, we still met up in the breaks, yet, that wasn't enough to keep our friendship going. we started growing distant and in fifth grade, we got into a huge, stupid fight. I still remember the date. December, 31, 2019. we were on a call and she was being a bit toxic so I got mad and blocked her. she hasn't even tried reaching out to me, and I was devastated. a while later in late 2020, a mutual friend invited us both to her house. we made up there and started calling each other and playing Roblox every day in January 2021 but stopped eventually, we would still talk every other day. and we still talk to this day. but never as much as before. now, whenever I invite her to hang out, she brings up any excuse not to go. it hurts, so damn much. that my best friend and other half doesn't even want me anymore. she's got a whole friend group now and that girl that made me hate her in third grade is one of her best friends now. I'm not mad, just sad. because I'm in a trio, and always the left-out one there. and they're toxic af, and threaten me with my secrets. but there's nothing I can do about anything. I'm happy for her, I really am. I just miss her, and the thought of her not wanting me anymore kinda hurt. sometimes I think, that girl was the reason for all this. and sometimes, I even blame myself. but never my best friend, yes she was a bit toxic, but i just can't get myself to blame her. and soon i came to realize, that it isn't her fault, nor that girl, and not even myself. it's just how the world works, people come, and people go. and the only thing you can do about it is make amazing memories, cause one day, you'll look back at them and smile. edit: alot has happened since this comment for starters i left that trio, nd made new friends and we became a friendgroup. that friendgroup has saved me, literally. i owe them so so much nd i love them to bits they made school way more bearable nd i began to love school cuz of them then the girls in the trio i was in joined the fg it was kinda annoying but it didnt matter, they didnt matter at all to me as long as i had my other friends. one of the girls in the trio was being a bitch tbh nd throwing words at me but i ignored her cuz shes js being petty lmfao she would literally repeat her words nd i would act like i didnt hear her nd continue talking w my friends it was so fuckinf hilarious i laugh ab it to this day anyway i had an amazing rest of the school year unfortunately though, most of the fg moved away to diff schools/countries/classes nd the rest js stopped talking so now im back to square one w my old trio🔥🔥🔥🔥 its whatever tho im moving next year anywway ill js handle the toxicness for a few more months nd i get to move nd start fresh!!! im meeting up w the fg one last time this week since everyone is back in the country now i miss them so much im so excited

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