@andriamsimpsonrussell

1 month ago

When I was born, from a 16 year old mother and 17 year old father, I was the dirty little secret that everyone knew about except me. First experience was sitting in 9th grade homeroom and the teacher taking roll call, when he got to me he called me my mothers name, twice. It didn't register at first because I wasn't really listening to him, its homeroom, but I looked up and everyone was staring at me so I looked at the teacher and he repeated my mothers name and I responded " A@#$ is my mothers name, I'm Andria". I was raised by my maternal grandmom (forever known as MOM) and would see my mother all the time but I had no idea who she was until I was probably four or five and my mother dumped her two young sons off at MOMs house after leaving her husband (not my father THANK GOD!) and decided to move from NYS to California for six months. After she left my MOM sat myself and the two boys (my half brothers, I had no idea they were actually my brothers) down in my room and she told me "A@#$ is your real mother and are your brothers". I was too young to fully understand what all of that meant and my response was "So does that mean I get to play with the boys all the time?". I have had no real relationship with my mother and even less to nonexistent with my bio father, my MOM took me to the bank he worked at when I was probably six and she spoke to him but I had no idea who he was later when I was working at McDonalds he came through my line and we locked eyes but I still didn't know who he was but after I took his order I turned around and said to a co-worker that "I think I just waited on my father", years later I spoke to him once on the phone to "surprise him" on his birthday and I asked him if he came through my line at McD's? It was him. I've seen photos of him but I've still never met him. Those years at McDs an older couple always use to come in for coffee and breakfast and they said that I looked like my grandmother, my PATERNAL grandmother who had passed giving birth to my father and his twin brother which I didn't know at the time. Later they brought their high school yearbook that I also graduated from, and showed me a picture of my grandmother, it was shocking how much I looked like her. Later I gained access to my high school archives at the school and found the yearbooks for when my mother, father and his twin brother were in school, turned out that most of the teachers and the principal were teachers when my bio parents were in school and the school secretary when to school with both of my parents. Everyone knew I was the ba$tard child and gossiped about me. Also turns out that the parents of one of my "friends" also went to school with my bio parents and one day my "friend" walked up to me and said "I know who your father is but I'm not going to tell you." Sometimes being the "dirty little secret" is a bitch!!!

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