@kieragrace6786

2 years ago

I was bullied a lot in middle school. Like a lot. I only had one friend, and his name was Sean. We spent almost every weekend together; we were the textbook definition of best friends. Even though I’m a girl and he was a boy I slept over at his house all the time and it wasn’t even weird because we were just so close. Somehow, though, we grew apart. He stopped answering my texts and just straight up ignored me. One day our families decided to go on a vacation together and he literally pretended I didn’t exist. I became invisible, even to him. Honestly I can say that, after all the bullying, he was the only reason why I lived through it all. But no, now he hated me too. This song reminds me of him so much; I can’t listen to it without crying. It has been a little over two years since that vacation, and it has been quite a bit longer since we were actually friends, but I still miss him. I don’t know what happened, but I blame myself. Every day I tell myself ‘maybe if I was just prettier, for I am ugly and worthless, maybe then he would still be my friend.’ ‘Maybe, just maybe, he would notice how much he hurt me if I wasn’t here anymore.’ But alas, they’re just empty words. I miss him so damn much it kills me. This song speaks directly to my heart.

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