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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Feb 27, 2022 ^^
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I had a friend who I saw just hating me more everyday and becoming so popular that he did not talk to me. We truly had a great friendship. I remember hitting my shed with a baseball for an hour and crying my eyes out. I miss him. I remember talking to him for hours. And one time my Mom forgot to pick me up from his house and we stayed at the park for a hour just talking about school. I thought of him like a brother. I saw our friendship fade away slowly it was out of my control. He was the best friend I had ever made.- I miss you Loudon
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To everyone doing their homework, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus.
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is sad, grab a snack, have some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your creation looks terrific. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
These are not my words but spread them and copy paste
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Im turning 21 and i just i realized how terrible my childhood was
..no friends
..no socializing
..parents not giving a sh!t about how much grades i aced
..getting bullied a sh!t ton of times because i liked harrypotter and i was a nerd
..having my siblings hate me and not inviting me to join them in a conversation and blaming eveything they did wrong on me while i have to get beaten for them
While i still loved them
..had one bestfriend who went to another school..and when we finnaly met again he had alot of friends while he didnt remmember me..his other friends pushed me to the ground and laughed saying " Bye sucker "
..still loving every toxic person in my life
..over thinking questions such as
Am i too good?
Am i too bad?
Am i too nerdy?
What am i supposed to do to make people happy?
No going outside and having vacation and fun holidays ..oh wow im now a teen..youtube...people really are having fun..
Ill just watch them
My younger brother uses my account in youtube... oh welp
He makes videos without even permission
Yells for parents when i listen to music while studying
..grew up watching everyone achieving their dreams while i didnt get accepted to college
I always say things are gonna be amazing when i show them how worthy i am
While im just sitting everyday in my room trying to find a job online just to stand on my own feet and leave my toxic family
Edit one year later: i just did everything i could... this is unending pain... this year i really tried to ÂŁill my self... this isnt fair.. why is everyone around me so succesful and im at the same spot.. everything is getting worse.. i say i need help but when i recieve it i just get hurt more.. its truly painful to see the most person you like fade away and change their perspective off of you.. did i change?..
did everybody around me change?
please answer me god..
Does god hate me this much?..
Just teared up typing thisđ
If u read all of this u really care about people.. thx..
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I was only 15 when this was taken of my mom. Sadly, I have very few pictures of momma. When I was 17 she was first diagnosed with breast cancer and fought a long, hard battle for 4 years to stay our mom because she didn't want to leave her children. I won't focus on that struggle today but of her beauty, wisdom, class and fire. She gave me wisdom and strength of motherhood. Her laughter and goodness was truly contagious. After losing her so soon, I found myself gravitating to individuals who exude her qualities. I see in my children her loving heart and good nature, her smile and strength and that is when I feel my mom surrounding me. In my times of struggle I hear her words of wisdom echo in my mind. I'll forever miss our life moments together from long days of horseback riding, cooking together, laughing at life and her firm guidance as my mother. She didn't raise me to perfection but raised me to her expectation. To enjoy life moments and love those who touch your life. Don't focus on the negative moments because in time it shall pass and you'll miss out on the positive. Her beauty and strength was limitless and forever walks with me in my journey. Mother's Day is a day to appreciate and rejoice in your mom. Whether it be your mother or mother figure who molded you. Today, I celebrate my momma. I hope I've met her expectations these past 24 years without her by my side. I pray as a mother myself I have respected her legacy and the simple beauty she expected in me, her grandchildren and now to her great grandchild. ⤠Happy Mother's Day.
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to the person reading this,
Itâs been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you donât see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginably painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didnât think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all arenât perfect. Itâs painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You donât know how much impact you have in this world and itâs sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, itâs something so simple and little that brightens up someoneâs whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things youâre passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though itâs been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that youâre here, existing, but I donât want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. Itâs heartbreaking that you think youâre not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart has been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, itâs not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. Youâre not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen to. I am listening, you can tell me whatâs wrong. Itâs everything, isnât it? Thereâs something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel. It's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and canât give you a hug, thatâs why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen to. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much. I write this because I want you to stay here with me. I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didnât give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didnât give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why canât you now? I know itâs tiring, you're mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Donât let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I wonât let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I wonât let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that thereâs someone looking right back, maybe we canât see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and thatâs enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and youâre still fighting. Youâre so much stronger than you think, you didnât leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesnât feel like it, when you donât feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, youâre one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because youâre heart is beautiful, thatâs why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each otherâs presence. Youâre a star for me, maybe you donât see it yourself but I can see it, youâre beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and donât let your story get written by others but by yourself, itâs your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of âI hopeâ because I have hope for you even if you donât have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. Thatâs why I hope you wonât see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again. I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then donât blame yourself, donât think you werenât enough, donât lower yourself for someone who couldnât see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy. I hope you donât feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spent enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldnât see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesnât know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you arenât accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldnât be ashamed of. I accept you and support you. I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. Youâre safe here with me :). Youâre not useless, youâre not a burden to anyone. Youâre not a problem, youâre human and your feelings are valid. Youâre not being dramatic. Please donât starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know itâs hard. It hurts to see that youâre in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, donât let your emotions control you. Donât let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while youâre reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, youâre reading this and itâs enough for me to be proud of you because youâre here and thatâs all that matters to me. If itâs night for you, go to sleep, I know itâs hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, donât let them fight you. If itâs day for you, donât start it with such sad music. I know itâs impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If itâs evening for you, youâre probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know itâs okay to feel the way you feel. You donât need to be scared, of course youâre overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldnât? But itâs important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that youâre so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there are a lot of unsaid things I want to tell you and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you donât need to fake it anymore, because I canât say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. Youâre worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but donât let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate a song as your friend.
âDusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)â I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and youâre unsure yourself, youâre a good person and I am so happy youâre here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldnât, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like thereâs no other, hug like it's your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and great years.
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I remember I had a friend on my first day of school (Pre-K) and his name was Lucas, we were friends throughout the whole Pre-K and I remember hanging out with him everyone at recess. throughout Kindergarten we were still friends, same as 1st grade, and 2nd grade. But then I did virtual school during 3rd grade (which means I didn't go to school) and I would miss him a lot since I couldn't meet him at school, In 4th grade I actually thought I was gonna finally see him again that year.. But it turns out he left school and went to another school without telling me in 3rd grade, I just forgot about him later on in 5th grade. It made me really upset in 4th grade because he was my very FIRST friend I ever made in my life. I almost cried typing this.
I miss you Lucas.
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i was listening to this and crying. i decided to send the song to my friends and tell them that I was crying. my friend literally said "haha" and that made me cry even more. i told her it wasn't funny but she said it was and i was sobbing at that point. to me, some people just don't seem to care about anyones feelings.
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This song can evoke different emotions in different situations. I think this piece is just fantastic and often lets me sink into my thoughts for hours and reminds me of old moments that are buzzing through my head. However, it is always important to be active in the here and now and to pursue your goals and to forget old thoughts and life moments. Stay tuned!
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@EloyBastidas-uy6hb
3 months ago
Who's listening in 2024???
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